Excessive

1up.com was bought out and most of the people I enjoy were let go, which was quite devastating to say the least, and while that may sound silly, or even stupid, the effect that the 1up podcasts has had on my life in the last two years is immeasurable.  I listen to podcasts while going to sleep, while on the bus to work and coming home from work and while I go grocery shopping.  I've grown to know these people very well, like friends I've never met and I'm very upset to know that there will never be another 1Up Yours or Ryan Scott hosted podcast... and I'm hopeful that Nick and Phil start their own site and podcast, and John Davison organizes his own '1Up Yours'.  I'll always have 'reruns', which I already listen to so much, I'm now downloading torrents of full collections of each show that users have put up really quickly before they are taken down.  Anyway, I feel for the people who suddenly lost their jobs, and I can only imagine what it must feel like to have your creative outlet taken away and all your creative plans just destroyed.

On an unrelated note, I haven't felt very good in quite awhile.  I can't get rid of a nervous feeling my in stomach, I always feel nervous... I used to be okay on weekdays and stuff but now I just feel horrible all the time.  I get pissed off at work about shit, and today I wanted to quit but I know I can't because that would be retarded.

I've been playing WoW... raiding with my guild.  It's satisfying but also stressful, at the same time it makes me feel like I'm a part of a sort of society or group of friends, and that's kind of cool.

There's more but I stopped caring now.