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I woke up today and it seemed like the day, the morning that greeted me, was some kind of universal apology. It made me think that if a God existed, this was him saying sorry to me.

I woke up and felt awake... I felt awake and ready to be up. I stumbled out of bed, making my way through a sea of cats, and walked into my computer room, where there lay my iPod, on and functioning. Yes, before I went to bed, for some reason, I figured there was some strange kind of logic to it, I plugged in my iPod to the computer and then just went to bed. When I awoke, it was on and working fine!

Also, right as I was going to sleep, I got an email from Apple letting me know the new Thrice album was ready for download (as I pre-ordered it) and so before bed I downloaded it, put it on my phone, and fell asleep to the new album, Major/Minor.

Right after walking out of the computer room after discovering my iPod working, I went to the kitchen, which was a mess, and picked up a couple cans that I wanted to put in the recycling bin, so I walked, opened the front door, and there on the ground was a brown cardboard box from the postal service! Disgaea 4 had arrived! It took awhile, and I even feared it wasn't coming, but yes, after a long wait, finally Disgaea 4, premium edition arrived, and it made me so happy.

All of this happened within ten minutes, and it just seemed like such a crazy contrast to the last few days, it made me smile, and feel excited and feel good. I guess it was exactly what I needed, and I thank uhh.. well, I guess I have no one to thank, but I just feel like something special happened this morning. I know that not everything is fixed, and it's not like I'm suddenly immune to any kind of sadness or bad feelings, but it was kind of a slap in the face that can change perspective, that can kind of let you see things differently, and feel things differently. Maybe it's the start of a good period, a decent time of comfort, or at least feeling okay, but I don't want to jinx it, I'd rather just enjoy this one day of relief and prepare for what might be coming tomorrow, or the next day, or the day after.

After my nice morning, I made my way to school for 9am where I had an hour of advanced databases, which is a somewhat annoying class with a seemingly inexperienced professor who seems a bit... unsure... of his teaching style, and what he wants to do. So far I've been rather disappointed with the lessons, and hope that the class becomes a bit more interesting with time. After databases, at 10am, I moved over a building to Object Oriented Analysis and Modelling, which is so far a very boring class, very slow paced, very low amounts of information being conveyed, no work has been done beyond reading a slide or two, it's so far the worst class I think, at least the one that's easiest to convince myself not to go to.

After school was over at Noon, I had to catch the bus to work, which consists of grabbing an Oxford to Oxford and Richmond, where I transfer to a Richmond or Wellington, and take that to work. It really does suck not being able to eat lunch or take my stuff home, and it just kind sets me into a bad mood before I even start my shift.

Work was rather annoying today, coming into a chaotic shit show, with just massive amounts of crap and mess everywhere, there wasn't a clean or organized spot in the entire place, everyone (being Jill and Julie, plus random servers, and appearances of cafe staff) just running around like crazy, obvious by the atmosphere that things were either going late or going almost late, it's really difficult to come into an enviroment like that, you can't make a plan or think anything through, so I just asked Jill for something to do, and was told that the buffet that was going out in five minutes still needed cheese and fruit platters, and cakes and desserts, so I just started with cheese and fruit.

Time went on and things went out, I eventually cleaned up the entire kitchen while the rest of the staff had a 'meeting' basically just shitting on some dude, and this led to getting the evening events ready, which was quite a lot of stuff. A reception, with 150 hor's, and two plated dinners, one with insane dietary restrictions for many people... it wasn't fun. Jon came in at 4pm to help, and it was just me and him for most of the time. Things went okay I guess, and the platings went, and that was that. I don't particularly want to talk about it, as it wasn't that fun, nice, relaxing or anything positive in any way. Eventually Jon, Mario and I got stuff ready for the next day, which was basically just getting the continentals done.

Jon and I left at 10pm, he gave me a ride home, and once home, I decided to have a late dinner, considering the only thing I ate all day was a piece of toast at 6am. I cooked some spaghetti and watched a Jimmy rerun, which was the Bruce Springsteen episode, so that was fun, and then during commercials and afterward during the Daily Show, I did all the dishes and swept the kitchen and cleaned up the litter... things I didn't think I had the energy in me to do, but really knew it would make me feel a bit better, as due to my complete meltdown yesterday, and pretty bad day the day before, I hadn't really kept up on any of it. It did feel good to get it all done, and once the place was a bit more respectable, I ran a bath, shaved and listened to the Morning Stream, and once out, sat down to write and watch the Colbert Report.

I didn't take a sleeping pill because... well... I don't know why. Maybe because my body is super sore and my eyes are heavy and I feel like I could probably fall asleep on my own if I wanted to, and also because I was considering starting Disgaea 4 tonight, even though it's already 1:30am. I've kind of already decided I'm not going to be going to school tomorrow because it's just one hour of math, which I can read the slides off of, and then the boring, so far useless OOA&M class that I described above. I'm so tired after work today, and with the new game, and maybe sneaking in a visit to the grocery store tomorrow before I have to go to work... it seems too tempting to stay home. So I may stay up another hour and start a game, or I may just decide to go to bed, I'm not really sure yet.

I work at 3pm tomorrow, and I'm sure it's not going to be the best day in the world, but here's hoping it will at least be tolerable and not drive me crazier. Oh, and the new Thrice album Major/Minor is really good, so... you should probably listen to it. Not sure if it's as good as Alchemy Index Air & Earth or Beggars, but from what I've listened to so far, I enjoy it!

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