Excessive

So I guess sometimes breaks in routine aren't terrible and life-ending like I've always thought. It appears they can be refreshing or positive even, and can leave me feeling good, even if it's not normal or routine, or scheduled.

I woke up early this morning and stayed up, making breakfast as if I was going to work, but I didn't feel like doing anything out of the ordinary, not because I was depressed or anything, mainly because I just... was tired.

I don't exactly remember the order in which I did things today, but I suppose that's not really of importance. I walked to the grocery store to get some things I needed, as well as some lunch food. I ended up picking up some stuff to make a chicken caesar salad, which I enjoyed thoroughly when I got home. After eating, I cleaned up a bit, doing the dishes and all that fun stuff, and then put on a load of laundry.

I spent most of the afternoon playing various games, mainly Burnout Revenge and Assassin's Creed 2, but also putting in Viva Pinata for a few minutes to realize I had no idea how to play the game anymore, and Nut's and Bolts, which I didn't play long enough. I also beat a chapter in Call of Duty 3 but had to stop because of how bad the game was.

Bekki came over for dinner, BBQ chicken and mushroom risotto, and we watched a bunch of Dexter and she read some papers while I played some Burnout Revenge, until one point where my 360's disk drive wouldn't eject. Well.. actually it started opening and closing the tray, over and over until I turned it off, and then when I turned it back on, it wouldn't open at all, so I guess my 360 is fucked now? There's $300 I didn't want to spend... ugh. I want to deal with it soon though, because I extract most of my sanity from those games, and not having them will drive me crazy.

When I was out at the grocery store, I bought a bottle of sleeping pills and took my first one in two months or so, and I'm starting to feel it. I miss the feeling... the numbness, but the nice kind. Not plagued or bothered by thoughts or anything, I can just fall into a coma for a bit.

I work tomorrow at 11am until 7pm, and I'm not sure what the event is, I'm sure it'll be fine. I've got no plans afterwords, I'll probably come home and watch more Dexter haha... I'm on season four now. I'll be going to sleep soon, and it's nice, because I don't feel death filled, and I actually feel pretty light.. good for a change.

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