Excessive

I think I kind of screwed myself up... screwed myself over... or however you god damn want to put it. You see, I was hyper-focused on school, reading chapters of my books the day it was assigned, doing my homework regardless of the time, I was dedicated and in it, and working well. I was stressed and unhappy that I had no time to relax, so I worked really hard, got caught up and about two or three days ago I finished my work early, so I sat down and started playing Final Fantasy XIII-2, which was one of the first times I really spent any good amount of time relaxing since I started school. The problem was that it was really fun, and addictive, and now I want to play more.

I can tell it's affecting me, today I put off doing school work so I could play some more, and that was a first too. It made me feel guilty and uncomfortable because I knew it was wrong or at least not in my best interest, and now I feel behind (even though I'm not reaaaally). I just need to snap out of it and stop thinking about playing games. I need to do my school work first and try to stay happy and optimistic.

Even now I'm taking the time out to watch the Walking Dead and write this, instead of say... reading my chapters of Psych, or doing my Careers assignment, or my Cobol lab, or even starting work on one of my three projects. I justify it by accepting the fact that it's the end of the night anyway, and I need to wind down before sleep.

I'm hyper-active at the moment... full of energy, but not good energy. My legs are vibrating and tapping my foot uncontrollably, I know I'm going to have very big problems falling asleep tonight, which sucks considering I work tomorrow morning and then have school.

I think I need to decidate tomorrow evening to school work considering what I spent today doing. I've got a bit of a plan as to what I'll do, so that should help me stay on track. I hope... that would be nice, if I could feel accomplished, and feel good about what I'm doing.

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