Excessive

I'm having difficulty writing lately, as I always convince myself that any other activity will lead to more relaxation, more satisfaction, and so on, but the reality is that most often the writing will be an excellent tool for me to relax. I've been on and off reading a couple books about managing my... moods or whatever. I don't really like talking about it, it makes me uncomfortable and I don't know how to write about it without upsetting myself. Anyway, both the books have outright stated that writing in some form is one of the best therapies for managing your behavior and mood. I read this and think back to how I felt when I wrote everyday, or even the few memories of feelings I have when I finish a single entry, and I feel emptied out, in the best way possible. It obviously doesn't fix anything, it doesn't change everything but it helps calm my mind and leaves me feeling less insane, and it's important for me to remember that and push myself even harder to write.

Blizzard recently put out a patch for Diablo 3 updating the game with all of the changes bringing it in line with the expansion: Repear of Souls. While you can't access the new content, new class or new levels, a lot of the new content is available and in play right now and holy crap has it made the game so much better. Every single skill was looked at and fixed, or altered to make it more in line with the more powerful ones. To paint a picture of the old diablo 3, the entire game centered around the auction house, an out-of-game (as in it was just a menu system, not a part of the fiction or lore of the world) in which players bought and sold items. They designed the game so that nothing good ever dropped for you while playing the game. Most of the time complete garbage items would drop as you played, and if something good dropped, it would be significantly weaker than you need, and most often it wouldn't be useful to you. This would motivate you to take your shitty items, try to sell them to lower leveled characters, and take the money gained and purchase useful items from higher leveled players. That was the entire game. Play the game to get shitty useless items, and then sell them for gold, use the gold to get stuff you could use, repeat. It was boring, it was unsatisfying, and I stopped playing before I even hit the max level.

With all the changes they've brought to the game, they made it fun to just play the game like Diablo. They got rid of the auction house, they made it so that almost every item that will drop, will have the set of stats that will be useful to you. They made it so that powerful items drop more often (because you can't sell stuff now, they don't care if powerful stuff is dropping all the time). You are constantly being rewarded as you play, you always have the sense of getting more and more powerful as you go without having to go very long before finding an upgrade (even if it's a small one).

So because of all this (which was just released about three days ago) I've been playing Diablo 3 a lot lately. I gave it a shot after not touching the game for well over a year, and I had no expectations. I assumed the game would still suck, but was blown away with the changes. The game felt fresh, I felt strong and it wasn't boring at all. Ben has started playing again too, and we've been playing together when we find time, and I spend my relaxing time playing, so it's a lot of fun. Sometimes I get too... sometimes my mind races. Sometimes I play, and my mind is so stimulated, I can't think straight, and I can't sit or lay down, or function normally. This is an issue, however I don't think Diablo 3 is the cause, because this was happening to me last week when I was getting equally into programming. I won't go into what I think it is, but it's very difficult to work with, very difficult to figure out ways to cope with it. I'm trying though.

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