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Bought a house, bought a car, learned how to drive, passed my driving test. Got insurance, got lawyer crap, got car insurance, it never ends.

Today was one of the hardest days I've had in awhile. It was the day I had to take my first road test after about two months of driving experience. Last night I was overwhelmed with anxiety and fear. I was shaking, I couldn't sit still or feel good. I took a sleeping pill, and forced myself to sleep.

This morning I was equally shaken, I could barely breath, couldn't stand touch or sound, I was nuts. I had a hard time, and I felt physically ill, it was so hard for me.

I went with my Mom, and we waited in the car. I started my test at 9:30am.

I'm not really sure how I did it, how I functioned. Thinking back it was all a blur. I passed.

I drove to work, parked at Williams, and finished my day of work. Then drove, picked up Bekki, and went home. It was surreal, and my body still feels full of anxiety. I don't feel just stupid happy or anything and it's what I really wanted to.

We get our house in a week today.

The start of a new chapter.

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