Excessive

I think I'm too hard on myself.

Or at least, maybe I misunderstood the meaning, or took it too literal. I always figured being hard on yourself involved verbally talking to yourself (out loud or in your head) and putting yourself down.

It was my turn for crockpot at work, and I feel like I messed my soup up because I added too much green onion, and it has a strong green onion flavour, and it also has weird stringy things from the onion fibres, and now I'm embarrassed and flustered and feel like just hiding somewhere.

I'm nervous about it. I also forgot to buy bread to serve with it cause you can't just have soup, so I want to keep the car so I can go out at lunch to buy bread, but then that breaks routine and blergh.

I'm nervous about shopping tomorrow, I'm nervous about what to do for dinner, I'm nervous about what to work on next at work because I'm at a point where my brain has stopped flowing and I feel stuck, and I need to push myself to do something.

Today wasn't the best day.

Things have felt weird the last couple days.

I think I'm fighting off a cold, so that doesn't help, and I just feel emotionally unstable, for whatever that's worth.

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