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Today was Ollie's graduation at daycare. This doesn't mean he's done or anything, he still has to go until the first day of school, but this was a celebration of his time there and his moving on to school in September. After dinner today, we went to his graduation and it was great to see him in front of everyone. He came out for his "diploma" and to pose for a picture, and he did great with that. I could tell he was nervous, but he copes well. He then came out afterward to sing a song with a class and it was chaos but in a hilarious way. The entire time he scratched his eye, the kids in his class acted out or didn't sing, but it was fun anyway.

The day leading up to this nice graduation was quite stressful. Ollie has struggled with his behaviour for the last year or maybe even more, but it's hard to keep the timeframe in perspective - it's been a long time. He doesn't handle his emotions well, he gets more angry then Jensen ever does, he screams and yells and just can't cope. After I picked him up from daycare, we came home and I finished work, and asked if Jensen wanted to swim. Ollie was at my Moms, so I got Jensen ready and then went and got Ollie. Jensen was wearing a shirt that Ollie wanted, so Ollie refused to get his stuff on, refused to go swimming, and was being very rude about it, so I just said "I'm not dealing with this" and I went and swam with Jensen.

We swam for about 15 minutes and I had to get out to make dinner. Once I got out, Ollie was in full tantrum about wanting to swim, and I dont really need to get into it, but it ruined my entire dinner and most of my night, even now. He acts like a 2 year old, he talks like a baby a lot of the time, he mimics behaviors he sees at daycare from kids who have behavioural problems. I know that's the cause, and I'm hoping it just goes away once he's in school. It's very challenging, and constantly makes me feel like I'm a terrible father.

Oliver is very special to me. I mean, obviously both my kids are, but Ollie and I had a special relationship at one point. I feel like that's gone now. When he's hurt, or scared or upset, he only calls for his Mom. He behaves badly at times and gets yelled at, or sent to his room. I miss our relationship.

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