June 16, 2004 1:36PM
It's really a lot to deal with
Today wasn't that eventful, as Emily and I didn't really do much except lounge around with a few exceptions. Emily awoke early, and had to go meet a friend to retrieve some crap from school, and it was really early and I was still heavily under the influence of my sleeping pills, so I just rolled over and went back to sleep. I know she wanted me to come with her, and I knew she was disappointed/mad at me, but I was so out of it/dizzy/confused that I couldn't care. When I woke up though, I felt bad, but you should never EVER ask anything of a sleeping person, they'll always answer whatever needs to be answered for them to get more sleep :)After Emily got back, she studied a bit for her Biology Exam, which consist of these topics:
The Life Cycle of a Moss Stages in the Lytic Cycle Inflammation Response Clotting Response
so I'm wisher her luck, and I have confidence in her that she'll do well. Like in all exams, you think you're going to do horrible and you don't know anything, but then you sit down with that paper in front of you and things are coming back to you that you didn't even remember learning and it just flows right out of you! Well.. that's what exams are like for me anyway, not sure if they're like that for anyone else...After she was finished studying for a bit, her and I walked up to the local Dominon (they're fresh obsessed by the way), and retrieved ourselves a nice 12 pack of Coke and two nice, fresh buns! We conusmed the buns on the way home, and have been working on the Coke all night :) After we got home from the walk, we were really hot, so we went swimming in Emilys pool!
It's funny how much of a pansy I really am.. I wore a shirt AND pants in to the pool. Although it wasn't exactly the traditional way of deciding to swim (as I was pretty much forced into the pool), it was fun nonetheless, and I didn't care much about what I was wearing. I didn't really care until Emilys mom arrived because me wearing a shirt in the pool probably makes me look like a fucking retard and her mom already thinks I'm enough of one, I don't want to keep making my self look retarded. Anyway, swimming was really fun, and I wouldn't mind doing it again sometime soon!
After swimming, we all sat down and ate some good burgers, and eventually ended up back in Emilys room, with her studying and myself on the laptop. As time went on, Emily got sick of studying and I had finally downloaded and installed WinDVD 5 on my laptop, so we decided to watch Finding Nemo in bed, and that is what we did! After the movie, I wanted Mr. Noodles and Emily had to go to bed, so she stood with me as I cooked and then was off to bed.
As I ate my Mr. Noodles in the dark, I took my four pills, tried to find people to talk to, but Ally, Teresa, Kurt and JJ were sleeping, so I just decided to update my website, browse various forums and then go to sleep. I've done all of those except one, and I should probably get to that soon...
I'm heading home Friday during the day, and will be arriving in London in time to get ready and head to the next THE FETISH MASQUERADE!!! shoe, FRIDAY, JUNE 18, THE RAGE, 10pm, ALL AGES, $5!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be there or be triangular. Oh.. and be there. I'm going to be there. Doesn't that make you want to come? Bah! You fuckers better support my boys. Cocks. Anyway, I don't really want to leave. The only thing that makes it easier is.. well two things. One, I get to see an awesome show as payback for making me leave, and Two, Emily is leaving for Mexico on Sunday, so I have to leave no matter what, so it's not really like it's my choice. It's gonna be tough to be away from her for two or three weeks, which I'm going to have to be, but I'm going to have a job by the time she gets back, better food, more direction, and idea of my future and much more. This will give me a break to focus on my life, my goals, and what I really want. It may be scary, but it's really something I have to do, alone. At any rate, I'm sad she has to go, I'm sad I have to go, but what keeps me smiling is that I know it's only temporary, and I'll be back with her soon enough!
Well my sleeping pills have totally kicked my ass, and I can barely understand what I'm trying to type, even though I'm doing an excellent job considering I'm totally fucked up. Ooooh, and something funny happened the other day. I was looking up the drug I take for sleep aid on the net, and the reasons I like it are because it affects my breathing, heart beat, causes severe dizzyness (which helps me get to sleep), disorientation and tons of other things that all just add up to me falling asleep easier (invoulentary muscle spasms are the only negative side effect I hate.. I just jerk my arm or leg out of nowhere, sometimes when I'm sleeping and it startles me awake, but I can't stop it!), and it totally made me fall in love with the pills.. but the point of what I'm trying to say here, is that I looked up the drug, and all the symptoms or effects of the pills, that I like so much, are actually the signs of OVERDOSE and I shouldn't be feeling any of them if I were taking it correctly. See, the thing is, it's only supposed to be for occasional sleep aid.. like once a month, but I take the max dosage every day, and I think it's totally fucked up what it does to me, but I really like what it does, and I don't seem to have any negative side effects during the day or whatever, at least not health wise (a bit of drowsyness, but I can live with that), and anyway, I just thought that it was a funny story to tell, that I enjoy my sleeping pills and thought they worked really well, but it just turns out I'm totally ODing on them.. heh. Click the picutre of the Simply Sleep on the right for more info on the drug, and the overdosing information.Okay, I'm fucking tired... I'll talk to you peeps later! Noodles OUT!
this one LOOKS like the one in my previous post, but it's actually different :)
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