Excessive

I have this... 'thing'... where I 'write' or have an innerdialog of what I would write for my entry, and it sounds so good, and makes sense and expresses exactly what I want to say, so then I get out of my bath, sit down at the computer, and everything is blank, and nothing can come out how it sounded in my head. It's quite frustrating really, since it would feel so good to just write it all out.

I spent today very physically uncomfortable, having a headache with no medication to take, a sore jaw, no apetite and just overall shakeyness and stuff... I was so uncomfortable all day, it was like torture! To add to that, I was horridly up and down all day, breaking into tears one minute, and then having them stop just as fast as they started. I guess a lot of things combined had caused it... a lot of things that have made me think about a lot of things, and reevaluate some of the things in my life. I guess the only word that comes to mind to describe it all is confusing... and it's not that I'm confused about specific things, I'm just confused about almost everything... unsure of how I feel about people and things, unsure of WHY specific people are special to me, and what it is exactly that makes me feel good.. I really don't know.

I'm hoping that I wake up tomorrow feeling much better, and maybe even be able to sit down and write a nice entry explaining myself better... I had a lot of specific things I wanted to talk and expand about... interesting, deep things.. but they seemed to have temporarily disappeared in the mists of my mind.

See you all later.

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