Excessive

It's nights like tonight I wish I still had sleeping pills, but I know it's probably for the best that I continue to sleep without them, it's almost 5am and I'm still awake. In my defense, I had a nap, unintentionally. After dinner, I was feeling a migraine coming on... I could tell it wasn't just a headache, but I was feeling sick, dizzy, gross, headachey... and I knew it was going to get worse, so I ate a bit of Julie's wonderful Christmas treats she made me, put on Night at the Museum and I guess I fell asleep, because I woke up at like 2am with the bluray menu looping over and over. I forced myself up and here I am still awake.

I understand that I've put off writing for a couple days here, kind of putting it off due to losing track of time while playing games, or specific personal problems I won't bring up. I have wanted to write, I just couldn't find the time or motivation, and couldn't pull myself away from the games I've been enjoying.

I'll backtrack to boxing day, and won't go into much detail as it's been awhile, but Calen and I went out around 7:00am to Best Buy and Futureshop, where I picked up some games and blurays. We looked around at most of the deals but our main focus was on the games and movies, so we didn't waste too much time. For games, I picked up Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood, Deus Ex: Human Revolution, Muramasa: The Demon Blade, Mass Effect 2 and Halo: Reach. For movies, I picked up the following blurays: Lord of War, Bridesmaids, The Last Samurai, Hall Pass, Resevoir Dogs, Ocean's Eleven, Ocean's Twelve, Training Day, Unknown, Beetlejuice, Juno, Fantastic Mr. Fox and Romeo and Juliette. I was pretty happy with the stuff I got, and from now on I'll be saving money and not buying anything (for as long as I can hold out).

My boxing day Christmas dinner went well... I'm not sure if I talked about what I was serving, but we decided against doing a normal turkey dinner that we do twice a year, for Thanksgiving and Christmas, and instead do a beef dinner, which I figured beef tenderloin would be the best option, since I like to have a supply anyway, and everyone would be blown away with how good it is. I served my potato soup as an appetizer about an hour before dinner, and dinner was beef tenderloin with mashed potatoes, asparagus, baby carrots and a portabello mushroom. It's a meal I make myself at least once a week, but to everyone else it was really special, and everyone really liked it. For dessert I made mocha creme caramel, that everyone also loved.

The next day I had to work, but it was a relatively relaxed day, where Jon and I just had a dinner for 25 to do, and it gave us a chance to be creative with food. I made a safron turnip mash as the starch for the dinner and it was pretty good, I was impressed since I don't particularly care for turnip. Anyway, later that night, after work, I went out to Poacher's to see Julie, Jill and Carol! Yeah, my old friend/co-worker Caroline was visiting her twin sister Jill (my other friend) from BC for Christmas, and I got to see her! We just shared a pitcher before they headed to Molly Blooms, and it was nice to see Carol, however I think perhaps going out was a mistake on my part. A strange combination of things I didn't quite expect (or maybe I did) lead me to have a really shitty night after I had gone home (once they left me to go to Molly's).

The day after (which would be yesterday) was generally spent trying to recover from my terrible night the night before, and I'd say about 80% of the day was spent like that. Generally depressed, not moving, doing nothing of value. Leaving my place in a mess, disorganized... I was apathetic and didn't care about anything. I eventually convinced myself to try playing games to make myself feel more comfortable... more real, more stable, more alive. I sat down and played Assassin's Creed quite a bit, and really enjoyed it. I think it really helped put me in a better state of mind, and I feel as though I've been recovering pretty steadily since then. At around 2am, Calen and I played some multiplayer Halo: Reach, winning most of our matches (and I usually leaded the team), and it was actually a lot of fun. We played until around 4am, at which point I knew I should go to sleep (and would be why I didn't write at all).

Today I woke up with a fresh perspective and feeling a lot better. I at least knew that I wanted to fix my surroundings, to fix my atmosphere. I spent the first half of the day doing chores, and walking to the grocery store. Afterward, my place was spotless and clean and I had bought junk food so that I could sit on the couch for as long as possible and eat junk food and play games, my idea of relaxing. It wasn't until around 2pm that I finished everything and could play some games. I ended up playing a little bit of Mass Effect and a lot of Assassin's Creed (which I'm probably around half done now). Besides dinner at around 5pm, and then Night at the Museum as I napped, I pretty much just played games all afternoon and night, mostly Assassin's Creed. I wouldn't mind writing about the game a bit but I feel as though I should wait until perhaps tomorrow or make it it's own post.

It's late now... I realize this. I have one more day off tomorrow before having to return to work, so I will make the most of it the best way I know how, which would be sitting and playing even more games. I'm not exactly tired because of my nap, but if I stay up much longer it's going to effect my day tomorrow, so I think I may finish this up, and go lay in bed and play 3DS, as laying in the dark and playing that can promote tiredness and comfort, and it'll be easier to just switch it off and go to sleep.

I've added a few features to Excessive Gaming, but have yet to write a news post about it, which I will do soon, so expect to see that soon. Maybe... we'll see.

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