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August 30, 2004 10:50PM

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I don't even know where to start... writing right now feels like some forced, unnatural process that I'm only doing because I know there are people coming here and wondering where the fuck I am. Yes, in the month of August, I've had well over 1500 hits to my website, which is amazing considering what it is, an uninfished personal journal of a unintersting fuck up. I'm not sure what that knowledge does to me... might make me feel like I have much more of an audience than I used to.. but then again, it might just give me more motivation to write better... but strangley, at least right now, it makes me wonder why it doesn't do anything to me at all. This entry is going to seem very unnatural, not flowing or anything... I'm forcing it all out and it hurts, but I have to do it. I'll do my best to get some good content in though, but I can't garauntee anything... we'll just see how it goes... besides, not that much has happened in the last little while really, so I don't know how long the entry will be anyway.

Last night Michelle and Jenny came over to hang out / sleep over with Emily, myself and JJ. They both arrived around 9pm and I was in this really weird mood where I needed to get out of the house, but I still wanted to hang out with my girls / the n-crew, so I didn't know what to do... I talked to Teresa and she told me that there were a couple drinks at her house I could have and then I got the idea of going there, and then walking to the mall and going to the variety store... so I talked to the gals about said plan and it was discussed and we agreed... we were on our way to Teresas. We hung around for awhile in Teresas room, talking and giggling, convincing Jenny to stay over for the night, which worked, and so she slept over, and then we took a long walk to the mall, to the bank and then back to Macs Milk. The entire walk took a couple hours I think, lots of different adventures happened on the way... we went to McDonalds and the girls went and played in playworld while I ate a Big Mac... I was really tired at McDonalds and we decided to head home (not before going to the variety store to get candy). I got a package of sour straws, a bag of dill pickle chips, runts and a sour sucker.... everyone else got a bunch of candy as well, and once we were home, both Michelle and Jenny got some hair dying action going. Emily bleached the bottom of Michelles hair, and then she washed it out and Emily helped her dye it cotton candy pink, to which I have yet to see the results. Jenny got some streaks in her hair, which I have also yet to see the results of, but I bet they both look great (as usual). We all slept in my bed and it was squishy.. but fun. I wanna do it again.


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Sadly JJ leaves tomorrow, which is very crappy indeed. I wish she could just live in London, and we could just hang out every day, or every other day, or just whenever we felt like it, and go catch movies and watch TV and go to shows and laugh and smile together and not have to be stuck talking on MSN instead... :'( Makes me sad... but the last few days of the crew reunited has really been awesome and it sucks it has to end for a bit. JJ is the rockinest girl ever, and I can never stress enough how awesome she is. I'm thinking of maybe tieing her up to the wall or something to make sure she can't leave, but I think her parents might be mad, and the apartment police wouldn't like that one bit. Today Emily and I got some groceries.... nothing much else happened.. except Ally came to visit, which kicks ass as well, we watched Zim and chillaxed!

I think that leaves us up to date on the actual events.. but I could write more... except it hurts my head... I wanted to talk about theory on wanting to disappear, people changing, peoples hypocricy and how my opinion has changed over the last few years... how some people you thought you knew more than anyone else in the world, and time after time you realize that after being apart for awhile, they're completely different people... fuckers even, and you wonder... were they always like that and you were just to 'close' to see it, or did they change? If they changed, you can't help but wonder if you were that one deciding factor that made them that way... anyway... Talk later... sorry for the short update.

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Michelle
January 01, 2000
me loves you sooo much and im always here for you!

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