September 10, 2002 11:08PM
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Yesterday sucked. Linzie came over after school for the first time in a while (or what seemed like awhile) and I was in an amazing mood and she got really depressed and just layed there not facing me or talking to me for two hours while I sat there (or layed there staring at the ceiling) which fucked up our whole night together and that pushed me into the hole known as depression. The rest of the night sucked. Horrible night.
All of today I've been feeling the effects of depression. Lack of motivation to do anything at all especially smile or be kind to people. I've been being a complete ass to Linzie all day and it's bugging me. I don't want her to put up with it. I always realize what I'm doing AFTER I say whatever it is I said.
Hopefully I'll be feeling better soon but until then I just suck.
I have wrote a couple things for Writers Craft -- a journal and a character sketch/story (which was peer edited 4 out of 4) and I'll write those up and post them for your reading pleasure hopefully tomorrow because I just don't have the energy or motivation to do it now.
I've been playing a lot of Alice lately. Awesome game. I've also been listening to a lot of Red Hot Chili Peppers and MSI (Mindless Self Indulgence).
Also I still can't seem to eat. Anything I eat just makes me want to vomit (Pizza sandwhiches and so on) so hopefully this will go away because I really don't want to go to any clinic or doctor.. not at all. If it comes to that I'll just lie about feeling better because it's just not an option.
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- I lived with my Mom
- I was with Linzie
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