August 09, 2002 8:58AM
*Sigh*
Well it's Friday morning and I feel like shit. Why? Because I just read that Linzie was feeling depressed over here (or feeling like shit same thing) and even though I asked her she lied to me and said she was happy. I'd much rather know she was upset than be repeatadly lied too... I guess that's why I feel like shit. The whole thinking we would tell each other everything including how we felt rule kinda went down the shitter.
Not only that but this morning I was all worried because she never called or came over which she always does one or the other but she eventually called at 8:50 or so. I'm an already anxious person all this is really fucking me up... now I'm worried.
Ben's gone for a day or two so I'm left alone at night with nothing to do so sleeping seemed like a good alternative. I'm still fighting that sucking depression feeling. I've been doing great so far but it seems very close to sucking me in right now. Very very close. I've got to fight it. but what to do.. nothing. Just sit here.
Oh well after being lied to having no one to do anything with at night and feeling like shit (or almost) I just want a break.. I want to cease to exist for a bit. That'd be cool. I want to get into bed disappear and then reappear very rested in a few days when everyone is feeling better again and everyones back and I can just be happy. LEAVE ME ALONE. god.
Bye.
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