Excessive

While I have made one or two entries in the last few days, I've most definitely reduced the amount I've written, as well as pretty much disappeared off the face of the planet. I haven't talked to anyone on MSN, opened my curtains, answered the phone or got out of my pijamas. I'm not sure that there was one specific thing that triggered this change, but it's not some effect of depression as you may be thinking... no, I'm not upset, rather I'm quite unsure of exactly what it is that I am, besides comfortable. I've spent my days sleeping late, organizing music and downloading torrents, and then watching Highlander and my other regular shows as they occur.

Tonight I watched the last two episodes of Scrubs of this season (Season 5) and they were enjoyable to watch, although I can safely say that Season 5 wasn't my favorite season. It seemed to be mostly filler... nothing very important, dramatic or exciting happened, and it seemed to be over before it could really start. Hopefully there are a few more seasons to come, and they include some more... important... events, that actually matter.

To continue the theme of finales, Michelle and I also watched the Season 1 finale of Highlander (the last two episodes actually), and it was very good. I don't really remember seeing this one, although I remember reading/hearing about it, so it's difficult to tell if I did see it or not; either way, it was a really good episode, and probably the best of the first season. It was tension filled, and even though I had seen all six seasons, I was still sitting up, gripping the blanket in fear of what might happen. It was also the first episode to feature Fitz, Duncan's friend, who I enjoy greatly. Season 2 to 6 are within a day of completion, so it won't be very long before we start our way through Season 2, and that's when the show really finds it's place, and it starts to get even better.

I've been thinking a bit lately about when I'm going to come out of my... disappearing act, and I keep saying soon, and even though I know I'm lying to myself I keep saying it. This time... I mean it. I'll be back to normal soon... I've got things to do, and people to talk to... but for some reason it's just so much easier to sedate myself and never really wake up.

I've been taking a lot of sleeping pills lately... that may explain my lack of being alive, which kinda clicked last night... but they help with the sleep... but it may not be worth it. I can't stay like this for much longer and I may have to give up the pills.. if I can DUN DUN DUN! Bah.

Goodnight!

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