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I'm tired and don't want to write. This does not lead to a well written entry.

Today was Easter brunch at work and I carved ham and salmon for 270 people.

Okay, so I could try to go back in my mind and remember what I did during the last few days, but I feel like that wouldn't be fun, and wouldn't serve much a purpose. I beat Mass Effect, and had a couple days off, read a lot of The Hunger Games, and overall enjoyed myself.

Yeah, I haven't been writing, but I will tonight, I promise. I've been reading, and having date night, and being okay. Playing Mass Effect and watching Our Idiot Brother, and doing laundry.

I'll write soon!

I had a super lazy day and felt pretty good about it. I could've cleaned or organized or have done some other productive thing, but instead I played games, watched TV and read my book, and didn't really feel guilty or bad about it. It felt pretty good actually.

I'm tired so let's see if I can get this entry out in a timely manner.

I more or less spent the day cleaning and feeling good about it. I woke up around 10:00am I think. In the middle of the night, I woke up with a splitting headache, like so intense that I couldn't even stay laying down, I had to get up to feel any kind of relief. So I get out of bed at like 3am, take a bunch of advil, drink a bunch of water and take a sleeping pill, as I figure the sleeping pill will be the only way to get any kind of relief (can't feel pain when you're asleep). I woke up feeling groggy from the pill, but ready to start the day.

My hands ache, sore with cuts, burns and bruises and sometimes I find myself taking a second to stretch out my fingers and feel my hands, and it's a persistent annoyance that I try not let effect me. My head aches, my shoulders are tight and feel as though screws have been screwed into various places in my back. My legs, hips and knees have a dull ache that remind me that I spent more than eight hours of my feet without time to sit, walking, climbing stairs, moving quickly, without stopping. My eyes are heavy and sting, my sinuses are blocked and painful with pressure, caused by god know's what, and how to fix it I've never known. I am uncomfortable, but this is me most nights. I usually try to ignore it, but sometimes it's just impossible to.

I've put off writing for a little while because of two things, one being time - I've felt busy, or at least I haven't really been sitting around where writing was an option, and two - I've been in such a dark place, and felt so anxious that I had this deep, dark desire to not be awake, and that gets in the way of writing.

So shitty and sad and useless and retarded and stupid.

Yesterday I saw City and Colour with my Mom and Sister, and it was pretty fun. Grey Kingdom opened and were great as well, and Dallas was fun and played a long set. I took a few pictures and posted them on facebook, which can be viewed by clicking this link.

My Strange Obsession is a weird and fucked up show, that makes me uncomfortable and I'm not sure why I'm watching it. Well, truthfully I recorded a bunch of them, as I had never watched it before but was interested, so I have like five or six to watch, but after two or three, it's pretty brutal, I want to stop but it's on and can't seem to. I literally feel uncomfortable watching it, it makes me anxious.