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I think I've temporarily lost my ability to form sentances and actually write... wait.. no.. looks like I'm doing something here. it's painful though.

My mind feels so busy and sprinning and twirling that I can't keep a thought focused for more than a second, and it moves onto another one. It makes it very difficult to write of course, but also to concentrate or think about anything. I don't really know what to write about or why I even started this entry... I think it's just because I feel there are things inside of me wanting to get out and this is my only outlet.

Feels like my mind is kinda collapsing, but I don't think it's neccessarily from a bad thing, or will result in bad things. I mean.. I know I'm okay.. I'm definitley okay. but.. I just feel a mess inside, too much to process.

Late rent today.. I only have enough to pay half or so... I guess I'm just super stressed out about that, and I can't afford a bus pass this month, so I have no god damn clue how I'm going to get or afford to get to work. Luckly I don't eat, or I'd complain about not having any food either.

I think the stress from the last paragraph, and the stress from being me, added up has caused this whirlwind in my head.

It'll probably calm down a bit soon...

I got new plugs.. 1/2inch. So.. I stretched my right earlobe last night to 1/2inch easily, and today it's healing up quickly (mmm, tons of ear goop and crusties) and when it doesnt hurt to wiggle, I'll put in my plug and do the other lobe.

Besides my headache last night, it was pretty enjoyable actually... I was.. beside myself.

There's pretty much just one constant for today.. I miss Emily.but I don't know if thats a good thing.

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How do you tell a communist? Well, it's someone who reads Marx and Lenin. And how do you tell an anti-Communist? It's someone who understands Marx and Lenin.

Ronald Reagan

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