Excessive

Today was a day off... it's funny because that's all I've really got to say because I just didn't do anything today beyond tidy up a bit. You would think that finally having a full day off after two weeks of unimaginable amounts of school and work, I would use that time to do things I enjoy, but sadly time and my brain didn't line up and I was left pretty useless today.

I woke up at 9:30 or 10am today, and I was having a pretty intense dream... I didn't take my sleeping pill last night and instead had a natural sleep, which may be why I had such vivid dreams, but they were weird none the less. I woke up and decided to make a big breakfast for my day off, which was a brocolli, mushroom and red onion omelette with some marble cheddar in the middle for good measure. I also had five potato pancakes (small ones), bacon, coffee and toast. It was pretty good, but it was more than I could eat all at once.

After breakfast, I just did normal cleaning stuff, taking care of the dishes, litter and sweeping, and that took more time than I had thought, but I had nothing else to do, so why not. Eventually by the afternoon, I put on the laundry and played a couple maps of Final Fantasy Tactics A2, and watched the TV I had recorded.

I did have a small lunch before putting in the laundry, just half a ham sandwich, and it was good, but I didn't want to ruin dinner by having too late of a lunch. The laundry led into the evening, and I watched some Star Trek and finally made a beef stir fry for dinner. I had a beef tenderloin in the fridge, I just pan seared it, slice it, added it into green beans, baby carrots, mushrooms, red onions and brocolli, placed on top of some rice noodles.

After dinner, Michelle dropped by to bring me some snacks, just as a nice thing to do, and it was nice, although still a bit odd to see her, and add the fact that I'm in such a bad mood lately just made it kinda weird. She brought me a bag of chips and a package of candy, which is nice because I really won't have any time to go to the store for the next few days.

Today did suck though, and I've even more sure that I'm an idiot than ever before. I never learn, I always set myself up for disappointement and sadness, even if it's a longer process, even if it takes weeks, I just set it up to have it all fall apart. I can't seem to get ahead or exist in a moment of contentment for any period of time.

I have work tomorrow at 8am, probably until 8pm or later, so I'm pretty sure I'm going to die, and it's obvious I'm not looking forward to spending the entire day at work tomorrow. I think it's a plated dinner, but I didn't look at what the food was, so it could be decent, or it could be really bad. I'm hoping for anything that doesn't make me go crazy.

Oh and today around an hour after waking up, I could feel a headache coming, and come it did... it just got worse and worse as the day went on, it kind of ruined any of the relaxing I was managing, and it ruined my dinner and my dessert. I've still got it now, but my sleeping pill is actually numbing most of it, so I guess that's good. I'm watching Happy Girlmore, and I will be going to bed when it's over. I've been snacking on candy, and I think I may have ate a few too many.

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