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September 16, 2004 2:52AM

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The comment script is complete!! A small line count 293 lines of code in this script, it allows the integration of automated comments almost instantly. All you have to do is download it, and then link to it anywhere you wish for comments to appear, it's as simple as that! Right now it's up and functioning on Emily's Website [Chaotic Maelstrom]. I only spent a couple hours this afternoon working on it, after Michelle and Emily had already got here. The bulk of the coding was done yesterday, and today was just finishing up the customization aspect of the script, as well as squishing a few bugs which I was aware of. There are still a couple issues I know of that need to be address, but the script will run fine with them still in, I'll just get to fixing them when I can. I've yet to put any real thought into a page or site dedicated to the script, considering how small it is, but I suppose in the next few days I might draw up some ideas for a mini-site... I'll keep you updated, and if you're interested in adding a comment function to your own website, email me about it and I'll see what I can do about setting you up and getting you the script and instructions. I'm not quite sure how 'user friendly' it is right now, as I only made it for me to understand, except some of the customization options, which I fully commented, but with a little instruction, commenting could be set up in as short as five minutes if all went well. I'm proud of it <3 :)

I awoke at 8:30 or so, when Emily woke me up because she was late for school... or I just woke up, really I have no memory of the actual waking process, all I know is that I was awake, unhappy, and tired. I kicked Emily out of bed so she'd go to school, told her what to do when she got there (Sign in and stuff) and once she was all ready and gone, I tried to get back to sleep but I just couldn't. I laid there, but my mind was going to fast to rest and I just had to get up. I turned on Final Fantasy 4 and started playing.. and playing.. and playing... I was just waiting to get tired, so I could stop and finally get to sleep... little did I know that the tiredness wouldn't hit me until 1pm or so, when I had already reached the end of the game almost. There are just a few more side quests I have to do, and I'll be ready to build up a bit and finally take on the end boss. Just a few minutes ago I bent over Bahumut and ass raped him, and Odin is next.. mwuhaha. The game is fun, hard and short... but it's still a favorite of mine, perhaps just because of the memories I have with it as a child. I'll post my end game results when I actually finish the game (average level, completion time, etc). I still have to write up the completion information for Final Fantasy 6 and 10, which I never did but meant to; i think I mentioned it in an entry, but I never made it available on an actual gaming page, for people to view, compare their own times with and so on... so perhaps I'll do that shortly, as it's something I'd probably enjoy doing.


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Michelle came over for a sleep over today... her and Emily played some Luigis Mansion, which they seemed to have enjoyed (I have still yet to play that game) and I played a bit of Vice City. Being around those girls has really made me want to play it again... damn them! Damn them all to hell!! It's fun though... but sometimes, for specific missions, they really didn't port it well to the PC, and I'm going to have to plug in and set up my nice advanced analog controller to get it done, because it's impossible to do it with the mouse and keyboard... I also played a tiny bit of Final Fantasy 3 and 4, but not enough to mention. I made us supper pretty late... around 9.. I made meatloaf, mashed potatos and corn... I was super hungry so it went down fast and I loved every second of it. I hope the girls enjoyed it though... I never really got much feedback from them so I don't know if they ate it to be polite and hated it or not. Oh well I say.. oh well. I've been writing horrible so far.. FUCK. I can't keep this going.. sorry. The girls are in bed now and I'm trying to figure out what to do... goodnight.

edit - The Following was added at: 3:46am

I just had a bath to try to wind myself down... to refresh myself; it didn't do much. At first contentment washed over me; the heat enveloped me and I melted, but sadly that feeling only lasted a minute at most. Soon I became bored, antsy and restless, I just washed up, went under the water and held my breath for as long as I could, and got out, disappointed. Why is it that no matter what it is that I'm doing, Vice City, bathing, Final Fantasy, cooking, laying, anything... I can't do it. I can't keep focused on it. I can't enjoy it past a certain point, and then I begin to loathe it, to the point that it makes me want to scream, and become destructive; it makes me want to punch and kick and lash out at those around me, and I'm sick of trying to deal with it. When I'm manic, no one knows how to deal with me; no one understands what I need, and no one is willing to give it to me, or help me with it, and quite frankely I'm getting fucking sick of feeling this way. I'm always on edge, never wanting to be touched because it might set me off, and believe me, I'm ready to go off. Why can't I just sit down in my bath for a good fifteen minutes, soak up the smell of the bubbles, the heat of the water and just relax! Why can't my mind stop for just a secnd to give me a break? It's really not fair... which brings me to a related point; be it a lighter point.

Whenever I play Vice City, or try to play Vice City, I always find myself wanting to play GTAIII. At first I'm fine, and I can enjoy Vice City, I can get into it and try things, but I always find myself drawn to play GTAIII instead, which is weird, considering Vice City is often regarded as slightly better, with the inclusion of a wider variety of vehicles and weapons... but still, perhaps it was because I played GTAIII first, that's where the magic of the game really lies, in that version, which is okay I guess... but I know that if I load it up and try to play, within minutes I'll be bored and ready to punch through a wall, which just doesn't work at all. The same thing happens with other games too.. I mean right now, at this very instance that I'm writing this, I want to play Final fantasy 4. I want to build up my characters, get strong enough to fight towards the last boss and maybe even finish the game. I want to do that... deep down inside, with all of me, that's what I want to be doing... then why... WHY THE FUCK am I sitting here writing about it. Why am I writing to a bunch of people I don't know, telling them that I want to play a game, when I could easily just walk over there and play it..? It's because I know that if I do go over there, turn it on and play.. within a few minutes, I'll get frustrated with my inability to pay attention and I'll turn it off in anger and I'll be no better off than I am right now. So I skip that entire step, and just write about how I want to play, instead of writing about how I am going to play, or that I did play.

Fine... I'll move on; I'll leave that subject behind for right now. *cough* *ahem* I'm looking forward to starting a game of Final Fantasy 5, a game which I've only ever got half way through, so it'll be new and exciting for me (much like 3 is being right now!). I'm trying to think about strategies of parties that I could use and stuff and it really makes me want to play, but I want to finish 4 first, so I'll only be playing one actual console rpg at a time, so I don't get too off track. I want a dragoon in my party... I've decided on that.... I looooove dragoons! I can't really remember what the first half of the game was like; the part that I played. I remember that I enjoyed it, and that I played it almost non-stop for days on end, so that also gets me excited to play it! I remember it being a very gameplay based game though, much like 3, much unlike 6 or 10. I can't wait!! Even talking about it makes me want to go over and play 4, just so I can get closer to beating it, just so I can get closer to starting 5! It makes me giddy, and I try to not let the fact that I wouldn't be able to play 4 because of my fucked up mind get to me, cause that's an unneeded depressant.

I think that's about all I can squeeze out of my brain for now really. I'm not quite sure of what it is I'm going to attempt to do after I upload this. I don't think I'm ready for sleep... and I dunno if I can force myself to sit and enjoy playing a game.. anygame at all really.. *sigh* dammit all to hell. Maybe I'll get a coke and sit on the end of the bed and just build up in Final Fantasy 4. I'll set a goal or something... get to level 60! NOW! BITCH! Okay... Lemme try that... *tear* Wish me luck...


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