Excessive

Why do all country musicians have to wear cowboy hats when they're not out in the sun that often?

Yes, I already wrote today, as you could see if you scroll down a little bit, but I figured I would write a little bit as I waited for this sleeping pill to kick in.

I was feeling really energetic, like... really A.D.D., walking from room to room, not entirely sure what to do or what would hold my attention. I knew that creating a sort of to-do list to control what I did and when I did it would help me relax, so I simply challenged myself to play a specific list of games for thirty minutes a piece. I sat down and played Blue Dragon, Borderlands and then Final Fantasy 13. I enjoyed the time, and did feel quite a bit more relaxed than earlier in the evening.

I think I'm just going to try and read some Storm of Swords while waiting to get tired. I work tomorrow at 7am, so I need to wake up at 6am and take a cab. I'm not sure what is happening at work but Saturday's are generally the same... I come in, do breakfast, and then set up for Sunday. Usually pretty simple, and I can basically get away with just doing that, even when I know I could be doing more, or at least feel like I could be doing more, so I usually feel guilty if I leave and didn't really help out beyond breakfast and brunch, but... it's more than most do, so... I really should get out of that frame of mind.

I'll be opening again Sunday, as I mentioned in my last entry, and then school starts. I feel nervous about everything, and nothing. There isn't anything specific that has me nervous, but I feel it in my stomach, I feel the anxiety and restlessness. I'm scared of something, and I don't know what, and that's usually the worst feeling.

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