Excessive

I have this problem where I can't lay and try to fall asleep if I'm hungry, even a little bit. I need to go to bed feeling full, or I'll just think about I'm hungry non-stop and can never rest my mind. That's why I'm up still, writing this, because I was hungry. Also, I went from doing non-stop school work for 6 hours into trying to sleep and I didn't have any time to wind down or relax. I didn't even have a chance to watch tv or play a game.

Tomorrow there is a big test in Workplace and it's very important that I do well, so I spent a lot of the night studying.

Days go by too quickly, and I always feel like I'm playing catch up, I feel so disorganized and all over the place, just when I feel like I'm catching on to something, it's Friday and I have to go back to work.

I fear the summer, because when I have a lot of time, that's when I usually get the most fucked up, and then at the same time, it's also when I relax the most. This week I need to really organize myself and school work, find out my exams, plan ahead so I know when I'm going to be back working full time, and just take control.

I find myself most content when working on my own personal programming, but I feel like I need to ignore it right now to focus on school, and that's upsetting.

I need to be up early tomorrow, and yet I sit here not tired at all. That's the curse of Monday, I get to sleep in late, but then I'm never tired and Tuesday is an early day. Ah well...

Guess I'll finish my snack and try to sleep!

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