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Things have been fucking crazy lately and I've been going up and down with such severity that I haven't felt like myself at all over the last week or so. It started with trying to find a new place to live... it suddenly dawned on us that we don't have to live here, and that we could perhaps find somewhere larger and more quiet, but could still afford it, even though it would be an increase in cost, it could still be managable. We found a place and really liked it, and got really excited about it, and then that lead in to some other bullshit - bullshit that I won't get into - but it resulted in just... complete disappointement.

It was an emotional roller coaster to say the least, and my brain is only recently calmed down... I was so mixed up and messed up, I couldn't even sit down and relax, or sit and program, or just... blaah. I couldn't do anything - that's the point I'm trying to make.

I used to be good at writing, but I seem to have lost my ability. Maybe because I don't do it anymore... I gotta start writing regularly, but it's just so tough when I don't have the time. I will be starting a more regular, routine work schedule mid-week, and I should get back to a somewhat sane routine where I can feel relaxed for a change.

I'm going to Niagara Falls with Bekki on Tuesday for a romantic one nights stay in a hotel, with dinner at the Keg and fun with the attractions. We have a king suite and whirlpool tub and stuff... it should be fun!

Tommorrow is gonna suck... 140 people for breakfast or something, and then one hour to get brunch ready, and... I have to work 9 hours, when it's probably not required, but whatever.

Also, Bekki and I are planning on buying a bed (mattress, boxspring and bed frame) tomorrow from Leon's as they have great deals right now and it's no payments for two years, so it's hard to pass up. I've slept on a futon for my whole life, and I've had my current Double (Full) bed for... I want to say eight years, so... yeah, it's not the most comfortable, it creeks, and moves (as it's a couch) so getting in and out is annoying. It's been a long time since I bought any kind of furniture or home improvement kind of stuff... it's probably been since I moved into this place on Langarth, when I bought coffee and end tables, and lamps. Upgrading of the bedroom is very seriously needed. Perhaps after the bed is in place and paid for, we can try to find some dressers, end tables and a lamp to finish off the room. And of course we need to buy some sheets for the new bed, so that's a bit of an expense, but completes the package, so it's okay in my books.

Sleep soon, then nightmarish day, then bed? Maybe!

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