Excessive

I took double the dosage of both my medications tonight, out of stupidy I'd assume, I'm not really sure myself. I know it's going to sedate me so bad tomorrow, that it's going to be a challenge to get up and do anything at all. I'm only writing this entry because I've made to m any 'picture only' posts lately, and I felt like you guys deserved a few paragraphs.

It's not going to be very detailed at all.. but that's to be expected on these fucking things... sucks the creativity right out of my soul.. bah. Friday, the show (Lye) rocked balls, and I hung out with Vanessa and Dave for the most part, Brit and Nick were around for a bit, and I talked with Brett a few times (busy man that one). I scored free booze and a free CD from Brett, and enjoyed sitting with Vanessa and Dave, laughing about stacker 2 and stuff. Overall it was a very good, although very drunk, night.

Saturday was a busy day of shopping with Brit and Vanessa at the mall... we went in a lot of stores, and they bought a few things. Some girl working at the ice cream store liked me so instead of giving me two scoops on a cone, she gave me FOUR, and two of them fell off and i had to catch it with a napkin.. so I threw it out; but it's the thought that counts right? After the mall, we went and saw Corpse Bride at Silvercity. It was sexcellent (I should really write more about it) and after the movie we headed to my place for lots of gin. After awhile, we went to the bar, I ran inside and said hello to people... (it was already 2am when i got there.. no drinks for me).. and I sat with Kurt inside. Eventually Kurt, Adrien, Sarah, Brit and Vanessa came back to my place where we chilled for a bit, and eventually everyone left except Vanessa, and then I think we went to bed.

I really, really don't want to go to work tomorrow... I'm feeling some very strong anxiety shit happening inside me and it's no good. I honestly feel like my mind is falling in on itself. I know it's not very apparent from the outside but I've bled way too much lately to be okay. I was doing so well... it seems human interaction is just bad for me. aagh. fuck.

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