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Back in the middle of last semester, when I was both going to school full time and working full time, I was pretty close to a complete mental breakdown, and Bekki could detect this deterioration, so she went and bought me some gifts: gifts that she labeled as the "relaxation package" which contained a cinnabun, wine, and a set of relaxation things. Candle, body oil and a scented spray intended for use on a pillow. I guess I just wanted to take a second to talk about those items.

I don't normally enjoy scented things, usually they bother me. This candle, I light it when I have a bath, and it brings such comfort to me. I love it and it really does calm me. Personally I think it's placebo, and that the actual scent doesn't have any effect, but the emotional connection I have to the candle, and who gave it to me and for what purpose, that I think is what calms me. The pillow spray makes me feel the same way; I fall asleep smelling a relaxing scent that makes me feel safe and at home. I find comfort in that smell, in that place, it makes me think of laying beside my wife in my big king bed, safe from all my worries.

I was pretty tired all day, having got up at 5am to go to work. The coffee didn't really help, and even though I brought a lunch, by the end of my shift I felt a headache coming.

After work we had a quick dinner... BBQ chicken with baby red skins and green beans, and then headed to Futureshop to take care of some Rogers bullshit that seems to follow me around. Basically futureshop charged me for a new iPhone 5s and then on the Rogers bill that just came, I got charged again for another iPhone, so we had to get that sorted out.

Bekki went for a run and I bought some stuff on Amazon (stuff to learn guitar) and tried to relax. I feel a bit down, and my legs and hips hurt, and I'm tired. I'm trying not to feel depressed, trying not to let it effect my life.

Tomorrow I work 6am to 2pm, it's a pretty busy morning and then slows down after lunch. Bekki and I bought tickets to go to the London Food and Wine show, so we're going to have a quick dinner tomorrow (spaghetti and garlic bread perhaps) and then go to the show for more food, and of course, wine.

Bed time soon. Timing didn't work out to watch a Doctor Who tonight, which upsets me, but I'm gonna head to bed soon, and hopefully tomorrow I'll feel better.

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