Excessive

I feel so exausted, so drained, that it's hard to know what to do. I've been playing World of Warcraft and watching TV, had a tiny bit of wine, and that seemed like a good enough place to start.

I suppose I should begin by saying that I spent the majority of the day so far driving. I drove from my house in Rodney, to Microsoft Headquarters in Mississagua, where True North PHP is happening from today (Thursday) until Saturday. Much like last year, my work (Vicimus) has paid for myself, and two of my co-workers to attend, and that includes a hotel stay, basic meals, etc. 

It was difficult for me mainly because I'm already an axious person in general. I feel anxious about just going to work normally, or just being at home. So having to drive 220km on the 401 without really knowing where I was going had me shaking a bit. On top of that, the social situations that will occur as part of the convention, having to check in, having to get entrance into the convention, it's all a lot to take.

I always have something to say, and I almost always regret what I say. I feel like a fool, and I feel fake, but it's all I can do.

I'm extremely tired, just completely drained.

I'm going to be going to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner in an hour or so, and I think I'll just continue to lounge around until then.

Afterward I may attempt to get some steps as there is a 24 hour gym downstairs, so I may go on the treadmil and listen to a podcast or something, and then head to bed.

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