Excessive

Today was a real day off, a day off. A day where I didn't go to school, and didn't go to work, and had time to do things. Things. Things. Things include laundry (that I had put off way too long), getting groceries that I had put off too long, doing school work (which I don't do often enough) and finally having some time to sit down and play Skyrim.

No one talked to me all day, and I was pretty okay with that, at least for today. I decided that I'm not going to complain about being isolated and alone anywhere but here. Yeah, here I will write what I'm feeling and it'll happen by itself, but I'm not going to complain to people, or bring it up. I feel just speaking about it makes it explode and suffocate me, so... yeah... stuff it down, ignore it as much as I can.

Besides, I can be a positive person... right? I can. I can be charming and cheerful and I can make people happy. I like making people happy. I think I'm good at it too.

Today was pretty productive, and pretty content feeling... I didn't feel too mush pressure, although I did feel as though the day didn't have enough time. I woke up and had a very small breakfast, walked to the grocery store almost right away, and got some stuff that I had needed for awhile. Milk, cat food, hand soap, and a few other things... vegetables. It kind of sucked because I had forgotten to bring my backpack, so I carried home the groceries in bags, and it was super heavy and super uncomfortable and made the trip very annoying.

After I got home from the store, I had lunch, which was a nice ham sandwich and pickle, with some cottage cheese and a nice cold Coke. I sat and ate, while watching some TV. It was nice to have the time to do it, to eat lunch for once... I think I only eat lunches maybe once or twice a week. It's no wonder half the shit in my fridge goes rotten. After eating lunch, I played Skyrim for about an hour, I set a time limit - that I would stop at 3pm, start laundry and do school work. I put on the laundry and finished my database case study.

I decided to have some meatloaf and mashed potatoes for dinner, with some green beans, baby carrots and corn. It was really good! I would've ate more but I ran out of ketchup and you gotta have ketchup to dip. I watched an episode of Voyager as I ate, and I did enjoy the meal, it was comforting and nice to sit and eat. Once finished, I made coffee and ate an Aero bar as I sat down to do some more school work. I completed the client/server assignment that is due Friday, because I won't have time over the next two days because I work late, and have other things I need to do before bed, somehow... It will be difficult to find time but I will have to. I need to do an instruction manual assignment, which should be easy, I just need the time... maybe two hours? Just means I won't be able to do anything fun tomorrow night... will have to work, come home, stay up until it's done, print it, and then bring it to school on Friday.

I have school tomorrow from like... 8am to 2pm, and then work until late night time, at which point, like I said, I'll have to come home and finish that communications assignment, unless I find time to do it at school (which is unlikely, as I can never concentrate there). So a full day off crap to do tomorrow, and then school and work the next day, Friday. I actually have Saturday off, which has never happened before I don't think (or at least feels that way). I will be using this time to have a real day off, one where I don't even have to skip school! I think I'll spend half the time relaxing and playing games, and the other half working on C++ and client server, and any house work I should do.

I am looking forward to the weekend, and I'm hoping my spirits remain somewhat up. I didn't take a sleeping pill tonight because it was already late when I decided to have my bath because I was playing Skyrim until 10pm. I figured if I took the pill that late, at like 11pm, I would be way too tired in the morning and it could possibly screw up my entire day, so even though it's 1:12am right now, and it might be more difficult to fall asleep then normal, I figure even with the few hours of sleep I'll be getting, I'll wake up easier and feel less tired.

I think it would be in my best interest to stop writing now and go lay down. Here's hoping tomorrow it's an okay day and not too stressful.

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