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I'm not in the most writing mood, as I'm distracted by Conan O'brien, and I kinda just want to lay down, relax and watch it... maybe eat a snack, but I figure if I do that, I'm not gonna be getting up again, so I figure I'd do a quick update.

Tonight was my last day of training at Teletech... the first half was spent on the phones, which went by pretty quickly and wasn't that bad... it was before work that was horrid. I woke up beside Vanessa, and I was having a panic attack, probably one of the worst string of them I've ever had. My heart was beating out of my chest, I couldn't breath, I was moving my legs like I always do... clawing at the sheets and futon with my toes (not sure why, it actually happens by itself) and I just couldn't even think at all. This went on for a many hours actually, and I really thought I was in trouble. Vanessa left, and I slept, and I woke up still having the attacks, but regardless I got out of bed and went to work.

Louis ordered pizza for the class and I enjoyed the three peices that I had, and it was a nice change of pace. We were off the phones at 10pm, and I went out for a smoke with Chris and Matt, then sat around the class room and stuff... surfed the PA Forums. After awhile we had a grad ceremony kinda thing where we got our badges and mug, and bag and stuff. Then we had an auction for neat prizes and stuff.

When I got home, I said Hello to Nick, I did some dishes using shampoo, and eventually Nick went to bed, I watched TV and surfed the interweb, and then had a bath. Now I'm watching Conan, and writing this... I think I'm gonna stop this, finish Conan, and eat a snack!

I'm scared about tomorrow, and not really about work, just about what's going through my mind.

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