Excessive

This has been a chaotic few days and I'm finding it difficult to cope with the messed up feelings that it's causing my brain to experience. It's been a blur of day after day, non-stop things happening, things to do, places to go, meals to cook, and it's all happening so fast, and I'm experiencing negative feelings as a result that I'm having a difficult time dealing with.

I'm not tired. but I'm exhausted. I want to complain but can't. My legs hurt and my hips hurt. I have a headache and my eyes ache. My days go by so fast, it's a blur, and I have no time to plan ahead or think.

I'm sitting here at 2:16am and I'm anxious and nervous and tapping my knee so fast and I can't feel relaxed nor can I feel okay. I feel... so... ugh. I don't even know. I hate this feeling. I want it to go away. I feel like I want to be creative but can't. I don't feel relief from being done school, and I fear work tomorrow for no reason.

So apparently I'm done school now... like officially finished, nothing more to do but sit and wait. Well... kinda, I do have to sign some paper and scan it and email it but I suppose you couldn't really claim that to be much work. Maybe I'll feel better after I do that... maybe it'll feel more real, or something awesome will happen, because right now I feel like complete crap.