Excessive

I have not been having good days this week. A mix of the weather, and just feeling really down and frustrated at home.

Today was probably the worst, mostly due to the fact that one of the hard drives in my computer died (one of my four) but it was my secondary drive with all my program files. I didn't know what was wrong but my computer just stopped working. Windows just froze up and wouldn't function (because it couldn't read those program files but gave no error). After booting into safe mode, when I tried to access that drive it gave me a failure message, which is how I figured it out.

Second day of school complete, and I went home early! Yeah, it may seem too early to start that, but it just makes sense and it works for me, so while it may seem stupid to skip physical classes, it's in my best interest to come home and view the FanLive sessions at my leisure.

Need to get out of this fucking head before it breaks me again.

Oh hey, you're cool if I scare you away, so you'll never want to be around me right?

How did I end up back here already? I'm doing this to myself, no? I had things to say... well, I have things to say. I have scenario's I'd like to explain, to write scripts for, of all the unique and different ways I could see myself getting hurt in the future. Different ways to cause my heart to sink and to feel hopeless, different ways to prove that people don't actually care, that we're not in this together, that you don't know me.

School was pretty cool today... I actually did school work instead of just sitting like a retard installing one program or something. I had java, and we started right away on factorials and recursion, and even got some homework, which I finished in five minutes, but still, it was nice to have some actual work to do, as it still doesn't really feel like I'm back in school, cause I've yet to actually have to think or do anything.

Alright, so we had our first successful Jordan's Invitation Golf Tournament last night and it went very well! Lots of fun, laughing, golfing... oh it was glorious. I made a good supper, we played many games... I think everyone had a fun time.

... alone in the dark ...

Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories