Excessive

rockin my fuckin shades

I feel heavy again... not weight wise of course (well, a little bit) but I mean, my soul, or my mind, or whatever it is that exists in there. I feel heavy again after going through about three days of a cleansing, and feeling great, and feeling tingly about nothing, and playing games carelessly and not worrying about anything. This heavy feeling on my chest is back and I'm not sure why because it seems like everything is going okay I guess... I'm pretty apathetic about a few things, specifically people. I've almost completely stopped caring about the relationships I have with people... even so much that I've almost lost contact with my family completely, and the rest I just can't seem to bring myself to care at all... it just doesn't click inside... nothings there.