Excessive

I think I'm going through a small mental breakdown, a mental hicup. My heart never stops pounding, I feel super anxious and I feel down for no reason. I can't help but think these are symptoms of withdrawl or change in medication. I feel like garbage and I feel sad, lonely, isolated, just, not.. normal. I don't feel good.

Last night was terrible, and I was at fault. At times - most times I suppose - I am oversensitive and difficult to deal with. Regardless of the what, why's and all that terrible stuff, the night was ruined by me, and I went to sleep almost immediately after writing last night's entry.

I don't feel like writing but I'm sitting down to write out of routine, or habit, or a sense of obligation.

I slept for a long time last night... I suppose I needed it, because I slept straight through to 11:30am or so, and I had pretty wild, generally uncomfortable dreams through the night, which hasn't happened for awhile, but used to happen way too often. I woke up feeling rested but sore from the long sleep, my back sore and mind feeling fuzzy.

C++ was actually pretty interesting today, as we focused almost entirely on data structures, how they are stored in memory, how they are searched and sorted, etc. It was interesting and fun, which might be the first time that class had been such a thing.

Thank god for last-gen clearance sales!

So yeah, another Splinter Cell (yessss!!) and fuckin' Elite Beat Agents which is the game I've been waiting for to bring some much needed life to the DS, as well as many other games I'll talk about in the future.