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- I lived with my Mom
- I was with Linzie
- I lived with my Mom
- I was with Linzie
Um.. well, it's been awhile since I even looked at this site, let alone wrote anything for it. The only reason I'm doing it now is because I'm quite bored. I stopped working on Time Finder for a second and was just sorta sitting there.. so I decided I might as well catch up everyone (*points at the one person viewing this*) on whats going on.
Well.. I am about this close -- [----] to dropping out of school or getting kicked out.. I know I know, you're saying to yourself, "but Quintile, you are the smartest, most intelligent person I've ever met and ever will meet! Why would you throw your future away?", in which I respond with, "Fuck you, you don't know me". HAH! ... *cough*.. umm.. well anyway, I've just had a really hard week and I only went to school once this week.. I had two breakdowns that involved punching something and locking myself in the bathroom with a knife and my mom freaking out both time and unscrewing the door knob to get in.. but she called my Dad and talked with him while I sat in the dark and she calmed down and talked to me calmly, which keeps me calm (I don't respond well to violence or yelling). She talked to me about my issues, like my extreme social anxiety/phobia, not eating or sleeping and so on and she said that she was willing to work with me and that she realizes that it isn't easy for me to go to school, or to leave the house period and she wants to help. She's also considering getting some help for me, which I'm a little iffy on, because I know I can deal with my problems on my own in my own ways but you never know. Where was I going with this again? Ah yes, she said if I don't want to go to school she would support me and help me get work building computers or something related. I WANT to finish school and go to college because I know I'll enjoy my program at Fanshawe and I know I can do very well in it, it's just really hard to get there, at least at this point in my life. But of course there is one jewel in this shit filled week, which if there hadn't been, I don't know if I'd still be here typing this. Wow, this got a lot more personal than I had expected.. well then.. I think things will only get better from here, at least I hope they will. I just know I'll regret typing all of this out in a few minutes/hours. *sigh* no turning back now..
I know I say this everytime I write something but.. updates coming soon... okay.. stop laughing.. STOP! There WILL be.. soon? maybe.. *runs off*
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