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I don't even know how to start these anymore. It's been awhile...

We're trying to buy a house. It's a very tiring, and upsetting experience, not a very fun or jouyous occasion like you would believe, but instead, it gives everyone around you the chance to let you know how ill-prepared you are for what's to come, how no matter what, you will lose your house and end up dead because there's no way you could ever plan or use logical risk assessement as effectively as them.

I bought a couple of fitbit flex for Bekki and I as a present. I wanted to surprise Bekki with something that help with her fitness goal, and I was interested in the stat tracking part of it, so I got two. It was a pretty expensive move, but whatever, I think I'll enjoy it, especially the sleep tracking.

I have good days and I have bad; today was a mix of those. This weekend was a fairly relaxing weekend, as they have been recently thanks to my new job and new outlook on life. I really do feel as if I've entered a new phase of adult life now, and it's interesting. A small shift in circumstance can cause large shifts in perspective.

There is something most certainly wrong with my brain; I've not been able to feel much of anything recently. Well, the more I think about it, the longer it seems. I have a difficult time getting excited about things, or just happy, and at the same time I have no issues becoming severely upset about random stupid crap that doesn't matter.

Sometimes I get so sad that I feel like I can't even make it through the day. So overwhelming.