Excessive

Time has gone by and I haven't sat down to write, and that's basically because my entire life is different now. I no longer sit on the living room floor, watch endless movies and need things to use up my spare time. I have no time to do anything extra anymore, and that's a good thing, in a way, and so writing doesn't usually make the list, although I wish it did, there are other, more important things that usually come first.

It's nights like tonight I wish I still had sleeping pills, but I know it's probably for the best that I continue to sleep without them, it's almost 5am and I'm still awake. In my defense, I had a nap, unintentionally. After dinner, I was feeling a migraine coming on... I could tell it wasn't just a headache, but I was feeling sick, dizzy, gross, headachey... and I knew it was going to get worse, so I ate a bit of Julie's wonderful Christmas treats she made me, put on Night at the Museum and I guess I fell asleep, because I woke up at like 2am with the bluray menu looping over and over. I forced myself up and here I am still awake.

A new major feature has been added titled What To Play, and can be used to decide on what game to play, and for how long, essentially challenging oneself to play for a specific length of time. Details are as follows:

I don't really have anything to write about because I haven't really been doing anything!

I'm going to write tonight, I promise. After Ally leaves, and I'm settled and relaxed, I will write... just you watch.

I'm quite uncomfortable and not really in the mood to write but I said that I would, and this is prime writing time as there really isn't anything to do but sleep, and I don't want to sleep (I'm not even that tired) so I guess I'll just write and see where it takes me.

I have this... 'thing'... where I 'write' or have an innerdialog of what I would write for my entry, and it sounds so good, and makes sense and expresses exactly what I want to say, so then I get out of my bath, sit down at the computer, and everything is blank, and nothing can come out how it sounded in my head. It's quite frustrating really, since it would feel so good to just write it all out.