Excessive

1500th Post

Today was a bad day... I'm pretty sure I can sum up the entire day in very few words, as nothing really happened.

Again, I resist sleep with all of my strength, and yet I don't know why, I never know why.

This week isn't going to be different.

I feel like I'm re-living the same day, over and over again. I feel like every week is the same, I say the same things to myself, I complain about the same things, it just repeats and I never learn.

Work was okay... it was busy, but time went by quickly and I was able to get out rather fast considering. I worked five hours, which is one hour less than I had guessed, but long enough to not really have any time to do anything once I got home. We had a buffet for 70, a plated for 40 and the cafe was full with special menu crap and pasta bar stuff.

It's just about time to get ready to leave for work, as little as I want to, so I have to stop relaxing, or at least, stop trying to relax, and get ready.

Alright so it's late and I'm trying to feel relaxed but I'm still physically uncomfortable and... well, in discomfort. So many different things, so much discomfort.

I feel uncomfortable... physically. My stomach and instestines hurt... My mouth hurts and my tongue feels weird. Overall, I just feel generally uncomfortable physically and I wish I was at home, at least there I can feel mentally comfortable.

I went to chapters today and ended up picking up a couple of books from the IT department. I got a C++ book that seemed well written and interesting and I also picked up an iOS / iPhone application development book out of impulse. I had thought of teaching myself anyway and being able to read out of a book is enjoyable so I bought it.