Excessive

Most recently I've been itching to be creative... I've been searching my brain for something to create - to program specifically. With all the programming at school, it's got me wanting to make something of substance and purpose, so I've been trying to think of something, and I may have thought of something finally, but before I write about it, I'll plan it out first.

Today was actually pretty relaxing if I do say so. I worked from 8am to 4pm, and there was nothing going on during the day, only a wedding at night, with hors, reception food, and then a wedding buffet for 100 people. I spent the entire day just getting all of that ready, at my own pace, it was a relaxed atmosphere and felt good. I took a cab home, mostly because I have to work tomorrow and wanted as much time to relax as I could get, and taking the bus home takes over an hour usually, sometimes more, so I forked over the money and just took a cab home.

I feel pretty weird today; I feel pretty shitty, or empty, or filled with static, or anxious... I feel something. I always feel like death when I think about the future, and how uncertain it all is, and how much trouble I'm in.

I've been listening to and enjoying Decemberunderground by AFI, as well as sitting on a chair, or walking to the bed, or laying in the bed.

Watched Just Friends and Team America: World Police today, and now I'm laying down to watch Van Wilder.