Excessive

Today was a day filled with preperation, and not much more. Preparing for visitors, preparing for dinner, preparing for dessert, preparing for some assholes to come into my home. I was having my Mom and Sister over to celebrate my Mom's birthday, even though it was a week late or whatever, it was the best time for all of us to get together, so it worked out. She wanted to try my home made pizza dough, so I took orders from them and made sure I had the ingredients, and made them the dough, let it proof over the course of the day, and had it ready to be made when they got here. I let them top their own pizzas, and then we threw them in the oven and about ten minutes later they were ready!

Today was actually pretty relaxing if I do say so. I worked from 8am to 4pm, and there was nothing going on during the day, only a wedding at night, with hors, reception food, and then a wedding buffet for 100 people. I spent the entire day just getting all of that ready, at my own pace, it was a relaxed atmosphere and felt good. I took a cab home, mostly because I have to work tomorrow and wanted as much time to relax as I could get, and taking the bus home takes over an hour usually, sometimes more, so I forked over the money and just took a cab home.

I feel good but I'm worried. I've been happy, as I've mentioned, but with each day my mind is getting faster and faster and harder to keep attention on things. I spent all of today going from game to game because nothing could keep my attention and nothing felt fun or interesting, I just... sat... at my computer and tapped my foot super fast non-stop and felt crazy. You could say, "well at least you aren't depressed" but... this isn't much better. I will try to keep it in perspective and enjoy the fact that the last two or three days have been very enjoyable for me, and I've enjoyed peaceful time playing games that I haven't felt in what seems like forever.