Excessive

Woke up feeling kind of crappy this morning, a mild headache and overall not feeling great. As the day went on, it got worse, and by lunch I was feeling faint, increasingly sick and my headache would not quit. I decided that as an emergency measure, I would have a nap through my lunch break instead of walking, and it did end up making me feel slightly better (although groggy).

I'm married now and I'm back from my honeymoon. Followers on Facebook will see hundreds of photos posted, and if you are reading this in the future and Facebook is no longer around, then you're probably like, "what the hell is that" in which case, you suck. I do want to create my own website to host all my photos, but right now it's nothing but a spark of an idea in my head somewhere, and I've no real plans of making it a reality at this point.

Today was a pretty bad day... not terrible, but not great. I feel as though I'm getting a sore throat... a cold, and it's getting worse as the day goes on. I've got a headache, had to go to work right after school, and hadn't eaten properly, which may be related to everything.

Work was tiring today, or at least I think it was, cause I fell asleep on the couch a couple hours ago.

Breakfast was super busy today, went through like 90 people from 9:30 to 10:00am, and it's complete bullshit, because from 9:30am to 10:00am is when I need to time everything perfectly to get brunch out on time. It was frustrating to say the least, having people constantly come back and ask for more food right in the middle of trying to do something... or even taking the food I had gotten ready for brunch, setting me back, over and over again. I was getting pretty pissed off really, it was putting me in a bad mood; Luckily I had Brice there to keep me in good spirits.

Today was a day off... and I treated it as such. I played an unhealthy amount of games, walked to the grocery store, and had a good dinner.

I finished Uncharted today, a game that took me a long time to start, but once I had started, didn't take me long to finish. I was actually kind of worried that I wasn't going to get into the game, I had started it before and it didn't really catch me, but playing it again this time really got me addicted, and I played it a lot over the last week. I finished with about 8 hours on the clock, on normal difficulty.

I feel weird... weird and tired. I could probably use a few other words to describe how I've been feeling lately but those two work pretty well. Everything is different now, what I eat, what I do, what I say, when I sleep, how I feel... it's all different. My mind has never dealt with change very well at all, and I don't think I'm any better at it now.

Spent the day with Ally, Michelle and Mark.

I can't stand this; I can't stand the dread I feel inside me. I don't want to go to work tomorrow, I don't want the seconds to go by, the minutes and the hours. I just want time to stand still, and even then, I don't want to be trapped here anymore. I hate how I feel, and what I look forward to. I hate where I've been and what I've done and what's been done to me. I hate not wanting to close my eyes for fear that I may fall asleep.