Excessive

I've been sick for a week now, and it's getting real old, real quick. Last week, about seven days ago, I had my Mom over for dinner, and by the end of the evening I had to ask her leave because I was starting to feel quite sick, and by that night I had a fever. When I woke up I took my temp and it was 102. I felt like garbage, and I even called in sick to work, which I've never done.

I'm probably the most stressed out I've ever been in my life, and I have about six overwhelming days and then one day where I can actually accomplish something of value, and then it all goes back to shit.

I want to be a better person.

I feel lost, and I feel hopeless and I can't get back to where I was. I don't care about doing school work, and I just feel so lazy and sad, it's crushing me.

I'm trying pretty hard to get my shit together, as I feel as though I've completely fell apart over the last few months, and I'm only a fraction of the person I once was. I've taken steps to try and feel normal, to try and feel sane and okay.