Excessive

I'm sure Bekki thought I was just fooling around but I was actually quite sad that she was leaving to go to a movie with a friend. Not for any reason of jealousy or even that she was going to do something, it was just the idea of not seeing her all day while she was at work, and then seeing her for fifteen minutes before she left once again. Being alone for the entire day had a strange feeling, it made me feel like how I felt a couple years ago.

While there are always ups and downs, and in my case, generally pretty severe ones (with no one to blame but myself) yesterday and today have been pretty good days, and I sit here feeling pretty content.

I haven't really sat down and written anything this week, and I apologize to my future self for not writing more often. I've had a slightly strange week, I guess I mentioned it before, but I am feeling pretty much normal again now, and I think a lot of different things had to do with it, mostly things I don't really know, or can't really explain, just normal/abnormal mood swings that have plagued me for a long time.

Last night I watched the movie Ghost and I've seen it a few times before as my Mom owns it on VHS (haha, VHS) but it had been awhile since I've watched it, and Michelle had never seen it, so I thought I would watch it, and I enjoyed it. It's funny, it's romantic, and it's cool, cause who doesn't think being able to be invisible would be badass? Good movie.

I spent a few minutes making inside joke pictures this morning... I have Broken Flowers and Lost In Translation, so I played them, and took screenshots of specific scenes, and then made little 'emotion' shots, and then edited them, and posted them in Linzie's myspace, because we have a somewhat inside jokes relating to them. BUT, I found them so funny (yes, I laughed really hard at my own jokes) that I have to post them here, just so that I'll always be able to look at them for years to come hehe.

In the last few days I've played a hundered million hours of Star Ocean: Till The End of Time, which I think I can successfully say I've gotten back into; heavily perhaps. I play until my back is sore and my eyes are heavy and my knees hurt from sitting. The story is so involving and interesting and original, it's refreshing and enjoyable beyond anything I could've imagine. There are certain cut-scenes and storyline movies that last upwards of a half an hour to an hour, where you can put the controller down and sit back and enjoy the story... for awhile it just feels like you're watching an awesome anime movie, except this one lasts about 80 hours. I'm really becoming attatched to Fayt, the main character. At first I thought he was pretty cool, due to his blue hair of course, but now I really like his personality, the way he thinks, and reacts. He's very unsure of himself, and now, as the story is getting deeper and deeper, he's becoming more and more confused, but at the same time, maturing and becoming more determined and responsible.