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Today was okay... kinda weird and off routine, but for the most part it was good.
I felt quite ignored tonight. I didn't really get a hi when Michelle got home, she didn't talk to me, she didn't ask me any personal questions, like what I did today, or how I was feeling, or what I had for supper, or if I wanted to do anything. She didn't really say or do anything except complain about work. I didn't feel any love or attraction coming from her direction, I didn't even feel like she could see me. I'm not even sure what it feels like to be a boyfriend. There was absolutely no difference between the way she addressed me and the way she addressed Mark. I could've easily just been some dude.
I fell asleep after supper and Highlander, around 8pm, not really intentionally, but intentionally enough that I turned on music in front row and went to sleep.. *cough* so I guess it was my fault that I actually fell asleep.
Great news if you are on OS X, as the greatest IM app to ever be created just released a new major version (in beta) and I've tested it out a bit and it's well worth the download and risk of it possibly having issues.
Something feels horribly wrong with me today. I don't feel like myself, I don't feel like this is my work, or my clothes, or my skin, or cuts, or house. I feel sickly nervous all the time, so much so that I had to bring a bottle of pepto to work. The only thing I have to eat today are apple products, and I don't plan on eating anything else. I'm sooo not doing well...
Yesterday my sister had a house warming party at her new rented house, and I was invited, as were a few other former and current pizza hut employees. I went over early... Lindy and Dustin came to pick me up around 3pm, and we went to the LCBO and Beer Store, and picked up some vodka, whiskey and Dustin got a 12 of Bud. Then we went to a couple variety stores and Pizza Hut and then back to Lindys. From 4pm to about 9pm I spent the entire time in Lindys computer room, fixing up her computer and making it a beast of a machine, which DID take quite a long time. The whole time I was there though I was drinking whiskey, so I think near the end of the night I may have left something half done on her computer without even thinking about it... a virus scan or something.. I dunno. Anyway, once Aaron and his girlfriend Jenn got there, I started spending time actually AT the party, rather than hiding in the room. Aaron's so fun to hang out with and it was really fun to drink with him to because he gets hilarious. Anyway, around 10:30, I had had about 7 drinks of Coke and Whiskey, I wasn't drunk, and I decided to take off and walk home, to catch my bus downtown. Aaron and Jenn came with me, as they needed to catch the last bus as well.