Excessive

Work is stressful, money is stressful, moving is stressful. I am stressed out, to say the least.

Bekki and I applied to a townhouse rental last night, and generally speaking it made that half of the day very stressful. Unexpected costs, spur of the moment choices, it was a lot to take in such a short period of time. I feel as though I've personally calmed down a bit and I feel okay about it all now... I am a bit scared, but I feel as though I'd be scared regardless of anything. I've run the numbers many times, I've made complex budget spreadsheets, and we make more than enough money to live at this new place, and live exactly as we are now (as far as food, going out for fun, buying books or seeing movies, etc). While I'm in school, it will be a bit tighter, but I mean, it's just... whatever, you just make it work, you just do what you gotta do.

I can write without the aid of a sleeping pill right? Right? Alright, let's find out.

After hiding inside the house for a few days due to my cold, today was a day where I had to go outside, because I had a math quiz that I couldn't miss, so getting up and going to school was the only option.

I feel as though I may have stumbled into a bit of a down period. Recently I've really noticed a lack of energy, a lack of motivation, uninterested in StarCraft 2, bored easily, restless, thinking upsetting thoughts... and it's weird, because when you feel this way, you convince yourself you've felt that way forever, for a long time, but I think it's only been a little while, at least recently.

I wish I was tired