Excessive

I think I'm too hard on myself.

Or at least, maybe I misunderstood the meaning, or took it too literal. I always figured being hard on yourself involved verbally talking to yourself (out loud or in your head) and putting yourself down.

Today was an enjoyable lazy day, which was what I both expected and planned for, since I had no school, no work, and nothing to do. I knew that I'd be playing a lot of WoW, and that's pretty much what I did.

Around Christmas time you exchange gift ideas, desires, things you need - lists essentially - of things you'd like to receive, and that's very convenient.

blah blah blah, worst day ever.

I haven't been this upset inside for a very long time. Although I've been doing alright at getting myself to feel okay, usually at that point something else happens that makes me sink right back down.

I'm alone and attempting to pass the time, and I can't seem to get into SSX On Tour, as all the events and shreds that I have left to do are either Pro-Master or Legend (the two hardest difficulties) so I just end up trying them and getting really frustrating and having less fun than if I was just stabbing myself in the stomach, so I tend not to play as much lately. To pass the time, I made supper and watched an episode of the 1987 series Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (the cartoon) and I ended up watching a couple of those.

This is where I'd usually write stuff... but I don't think that's gonna be happening tonight.

I had a good day/night... for the most part of course. I guess I just want to leave it at that... I feel.. okay?

Fayt Liengod

So work is dwindling down for the holidays, as was expected. It's expected to end on Friday, but we finished early (today.. I got two of the last four) and so they put us Yellow folk on a new study, YRC, which is basically just the screening part of yellow, and then asking the people to take an online study. It only takes about three to five minutes to complete, which is refreshing after Yellows average length of twenty to half an hour. So work went pretty well today... I was a bit antsy for a bit but overall I guess it was tolerable.