Excessive

I've felt a terrible sense of helplessness lately, just feeling completely out of control of the day to day happenings of my life. What is causing it is fairly obvious, or at least seems to be, as it seems to be related to my work schedule, my cats, and just my own personal mood and/or motivation.

I've had a miserable day today... and I'm sad, and lonely, and feeling sorry for myself, as I do sometimes.

I woke up this morning... I don't even remember when. I was in a daze... I had intense sharp pains up my neck and into the left side of my brain, stabbing, reaching around to my eye, to the point that I couldn't lay down, it just wasn't an option, and even sitting still hurt. I think I got up, stumbled around for medication, took three Tylenol 1's and tried to fall back asleep but it just hurt too much.

I had an accidental vacation; Accidental in that I had three days off at the end of last week (Thur, Fri, Sat) and then I requested Sunday and Tuesday off (suggested, not requested) and Monday was a holiday, so I ended up with Thursday to Tuesday off, and I go back tomorrow. The time off has been a mix of ups and downs, the main negative being a sort of hyper-active mania, where I become unabled to make choices, and my mind races, I can't keep my attention fixed on anything for any amount of time, so instead of relaxing, sitting on the couch and playing a game or two for a few hours, I'll play five minutes of a game, not be able to concentrate or feel relaxed, switch it for some other game that may or may not have popped into my head, and repeat that all day, feeling restless and unsatisfied, feeling insane.