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I just emerged from the greatest bath EVER! regardless of what Ally says. What made it relaxing you ask? Well I'll tell you! *looks around slowly* oooh, now? Alright. First, it was burningly (yes, a word) hot, which not only eases the muscles, aches and pains, but also.. does.. other relaxing things.. like.. melts layers of skin off and the such, which is also a bonus; less to clean you know. Also, Kairi kept me company the whole time, which has become quite a regular thing to happen; everytime I have a bath, she sits with me, purs, rolls around on the floor, comes up on the side of the tub and rubs against me, trusting me completley not to let her fall in the water, because she puts all her weight on my hand, so I could just pull away and in she'd fall, and the funny thing is, she doesn't mind water at all. I pet her with my wet hands and she gets soaking wet but never complains or runs away.. so I bet she wouldn't care that much if she fell in, except for the heat; that's the only thing I worry about, her getting burnt or something.. or her drowning.. so I'm not gonna push her in or something. Back to the bath though: I washed my body with my irish spring sport (because I play so many sports) TWICE, both times with a complete FLOOF treatment! YES! I used a floof! OKAY!? GET OVER IT!! I say to you all now, if you don't use a floof, go get a floof, because without a floof, you're ... floofless. It's soooo nice. It makes your soap get all suddy and feels like its cleaning you, your skin feels smooth and wow, it just cleans like GOD! So that made me feel good, and then I washed my hair with great smelling manderin shampoo... twice! and then conditioned it, and washed my face with face.. washing.. stuff. Aaaynway, it resulted in making me feel clean, fresh and great. I loves my baths *hugs baths* GET AWAY!

I don't think there is a word you can use to describe what I feel towards myself... or how I would describe myself, or catagorize myself as being; and I mean this on a much deeper level than you probably assume. I know that everything around me has changed, thus reflecting on me; changing who I am, how I act and react and such, and also changing how I see myself and others, but there is also some severe changes happening inside of my mind that cannot be reversed, but also hide themselves underneath my psychosis and neurosis, and they're very difficult to spot, and only under very specific circumstances can I catch a glimpse as to what I've become. It is a very scary thing indeed.

I feel sick again; I always feel sick now. I always have a stomache ache or a headache, or blackoutishey (yes kids, that's a word now) or some other ailment that drives me more insane. I like to blame it on my pill, or maybe this time I'll blame it on my poor eating habits due to my non-existant food. I figure that there is no need to go grocery shopping until after we're in the new apartment, because... well, because that way I don't have to pack and move over food and things that should be frozen or refridgerated, and for some reason I just like the idea of 'starting fresh' in that sense... but then I quickly remember that you actually need food to live, which I probably should've remembered earlier.

Final Fantasy 6 - I made this mini-site / section while I was playing through Final Fantasy 6 a month ago or so. The character information that's available on the Character page of the section was written about two years ago, and I didn't change it one bit, I only changed the layout of the page, and I created a FAQ on the game, small, but they're actually questions that people ask me all the time. It was fun making it, as I do know so much about the game, and hopefully there will be something there to interest you or help you.

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