Excessive

Yay, I got the new Bright Eyes album! Hooray!

It's been a weird last few days, I'll say that.

The last day or two have been days of relative tremendous change, something that I've never quite dealt with well... change is something I avoid at all costs, but as a wise man once said, sometimes it's good to just bust your cycle.

These bleak, lonely, dull grey skies do nothing to infuse me with energy and hope, rather they seem to suck energy and comfort out of me at such a rate it's dangerous. I try to get up early and be energetic, to clean up, to feel good, but I just find myself cold, lonely and completely apathetic. I know that it's because of these stupid dark days, and I'm trying real hard for it not to affect me but I just feel the coldness in my bones and I can't help but feel lazy and blah. Fuck you grey skies, fuck you in the tender clouds.

So I just finished Ratchet and Clank and that probably means that now would be the best time for me to talk about it, and if and how I enjoyed it and all that jazz. Well I didn't really know much going in, and I had some fun, so let's see what I can come up with.

Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory is the third game in the Splinter Cell series, released in 2005 to positive reviews, making it the 6th highest rated Xbox game, and the 32nd highest rated game of all time (and the highest rated game in the Splinter Cell series). The game was developed by Ubisoft Montreal, the same development studio that created the first game (but not Pandora Tomorrow, which was developed by Ubisoft Shanghai), so the game was made by those who were responsible for Splinter Cell in the first place, and you can tell.

I'm all over the place, from happy to sad to mad to depressed, and I can't seem to even out. My sleeping habits are all messed up, my eating habits are even more messed up, I don't play games unless it's 4am, I don't become comfortable in bed unless it's 9am, I don't interact with other humans, I don't see anyone, I don't hear from anyone, I feel alone; sometimes I like being alone, sometimes I hate it.

I went and had lunch with my Mom and Sister at my Sister's apartment and played with her new kitten Smokey. It was a lot of fun and made me want to get a kitten because although I have three cats, I've never had a kitten. He's so small! and fun! He just runs around and he kept running up my Mom's back and trying to get her earrings. Then I'd move my fingers on the couch and he'd jump from the chair to the couch and oh it was fun.

They shouldn't have guests on and then just argue with them for the entire 2 hours. Christ!

I'm in a pretty shitty mood. Fuck this shit.

Edit: 1:48am: I just beat Elite Beat Agents on Cruisin', so that makes me a bit happier. God damn that was difficult.

I had the worst headache ever last night and the worst part was that I didn't have any medication to take for it, as we were all out. It was so bad that it made me feel pretty sick to my stomach and I couldn't concentrate or do anything, so I ended up going to sleep by around 11pm or something because of it.