Excessive

I feel like my heart is about to explode. I can't think straight and I feel wired out of my mind...

I had a database midterm this morning, and I woke up late. Yeah, my heart dropped as I rolled over and saw the clock, I woke up an hour late, and was a few minutes late for when I'd have to catch the bus, and so I stumbled out of my bed to my phone and sent a text to Calen basically saying, "Please tell me you haven't left yet. I need a ride, I woke up late" and it just so happened that Calen had fallen back asleep and was also going to be late, so that worked out. I got ready quickly and we made it to school pretty quickly and were only about three minutes late.

What is happiness to me? Is happiness an absence of unhappiness? The absence of a specific list of things that upset you? or is it more than that? Happiness to me... happiness... Happiness is a brief moment that's followed by a much longer down swing. Happiness is romance, is knowing what someone is thinking and liking it, happiness lies in believing in love.

School was okay today, it felt pretty good to be there. It was refreshing to feel okay for once, to feel... okay. Operating Systems actually went the entire duration of three hours instead of only lasting thirty minutes, and that was actually refreshing, although I got a bit bored and downloaded and played Zuma's Revenge (the sequel to Zuma), so that was fun, and I still listened and paid attention when I had to.

I don't understand why I have to come home and feel nervous and uneasy. You know the feeling before you make a speech in public school? THAT'S HOW I FEEL EVERY DAY.

I don't really feel like writing but I want to write, so it's kind of an interesting predicament.

Sooooo much Final Fantasy XII and I can't get enough!!

this is to Chris or Matt. Are we still on for tonight? Raf said he might not make it, but you guys can still come over for some gaming action.. ya know, whatever. I just need to know if I should meet you outside teletech at 12am? Reply to this with a comment if I should.. hopefully one of you will see this.

I'm not in the most writing mood, as I'm distracted by Conan O'brien, and I kinda just want to lay down, relax and watch it... maybe eat a snack, but I figure if I do that, I'm not gonna be getting up again, so I figure I'd do a quick update.