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September 28, 2004 4:14PM

I Hate Children
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Emily


.beautiful.marle. I haven't updated in a long while because of a few reasons. I'm sick with a cold, and I hate it. My nose is all stuffy, and my throat was sore (but isn't much anymore) and I sneeze every five seconds and I get headaches and my nose runs and I can't sleep or relax and it's really starting to get to me. Secondly, I haven't really updated because I've been quite busy working on the new version of the website (webkore) and have been quite busy doing that. The main task that I've been doing is converting all three years of entries into the new format, which is.. repetitive and often boring to say the least, but I do it one month at a time, take a break and start up again. Hopefully this will be the last time I ever have to 'convert' archives (as I've had to do it in the past, like the last time I changed the layout), and I can just change the system that imports them, rather than the source itself (yes, yes, I'm sure that makes no sense to you)... anyway, things are coming together and I'm enjoying the work, even if it is repetitive and boring. I'm still aiming for a january 2005 release of the site, which seems pretty realistic *crosses fingers*

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September 24, 2004 1:21AM

It's In The Eyes
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Emily


my.beautiful.pretty I really don't think I can write an entire entry (worth reading) about today?s events, considering nothing much happened. I woke when Emily woke for school (late mind you... around 9:10 or something...) and I couldn't really get back to sleep. My eyes were heavy in that way that you just want to smash your face into the pillow and just go back to sleep instantly, but I just couldn't lay still or rest or anything, so I turned on Final Fantasy 5, continued what I was doing the day before; building up on a mountain, and eventually making quite a bit of progress into the game. I'm nearing where I had stopped my previous run through the game, because I'm starting to recognize some areas that were difficult for me the first time through, and I'm wondering how I'm going to do this time. This run through I'm using a lot more of the jobs, experimenting more, trying different combinations and strategies and thinking ahead much more. I played that for quite awhile until the hunger inside of me took over and I just couldn't take it anymore, and I had to turn it off, go to the kitchen and make some Lipton Noodle Soup (and I kindly saved some for Emily when she got home from school!.. awww! I'm so freakin' sweat!) And I watched Ben Steins Money and then threw myself down to sleep, finally winning over my tiredness with fresh, neck cramping, and headache inducing sleep. I woke up a couple times... watched some SCTV and various other things but eventually fell back asleep until around 3pm, when Emily returned from school and had her chicken noodle soup!

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September 23, 2004 12:47PM

Jay Jay Laari's Wonderful Horrible Life
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Emily


Lately it seems I?ve been unable to come up with new, creative or even acceptable ways to begin my entries. I always seem to draw a blank when it comes time to actually start the typing. I mean? when I?m relaxing, be it in a bath, on the bed, or even just sitting in my chair, the thoughts as to what I can write, the words I can use and exactly what I want to talk about flows into my mind, circulates, inspires me and is generally not a problem to come up with lengthy topics to speak about. Then comes the time when actually putting these thoughts into words comes and I draw a blank. There are countless things inside of me that I could type about; that I could release onto this pathetic palette, and yet I?m stuck sitting here, unable to even type a first word. To anyone that has read this for any amount of time, or anyone who knows me at all, you would know that I am never short of things stuck inside of my head that I want out, but have trouble transferring that information from my brain to my finger tips. It seems to plague me each night, and it never seems to go away; I try and try and yet no matter what I do, the problem endures. I have found fuel for my fingers however, which once the ideas start flowing, it will keep it going; my sleeping pills; but they don?t help it begin, only help it continue. Well? I suppose that was an adequate introduction, I guess I?ll get into it now.



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September 20, 2004 2:07PM

Left Behind
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Emily


So afraidOpen your eyesKnow too wellThat fatuates youSomething undefinedThere in the halflightThe demon withoutThe demon insideTo play then torment youFeelings so sureFeelings so uncertainSomething is wrongEveryone's goneYou have been left behindEveryone left the demon insideDo you still hear the laughterSo hard to describeAnd never forgetFaces that haunt youWake or sleepYou know you can't tellUnable to sleepUnable to fightUnwilling to wakeTo open your eyesFace your oppressorStill you go onConvinced it will endCan you rememberA day when it was notNot like thisUnsure of yourselfUnsure of your thoughtsUnable to knowOf what you think is right or wrongStill you go onConvinced it will endBut someone pushesA blade through your mindThere on the edgeNo one will find youSo hearing them laughNo light it's not the end for youWhy is everything wrongHere I amHere I amWith these wordsTrying to saySomething I can'tSomething I can't tell youNothing is wrongThe demons they have left youYou were not left behindYou were not left behindSo open your eyesSo open your eyesUnable to sleepUnable to fightUnwilling to wakePlease open your eyesHere I standUnable to tell youI'm trying to sayNothing is wrongPlease open your eyesNothing is wrongYou were not left behind

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September 18, 2004 12:46PM

My Life is but a Fable... let is slide.
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Emily


Oooh, silly Jordan I say, silly Jordan. Where shall I begin! SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT!! Okay, well really not that much, but let's see if I can flush it out! I guess we can start with yesterday... after Emily had gone to school, I couldn't quite get back to sleep, as usual, so I decided to sit down, and just play Final Fantasy 4, and build up my charactesr, and I wouldn't take a no from my mind as an answer. So that's exactly what I did... for three or four hours. I got up about ten levels or so, fighting the hardest monsters in the game, in the room a few rooms before the very last boss. While the monsters started out pretty tough, often bringing my party to the double digits in hitpoints, by the end it was a walk in the park, and the enemies could barely scratch me, let alone even threaten to kill me, so it was only a matter of time, not risk, to get up to a high enough level to take on the last boss, Zeromus. I had tried earlier, the day before actually, to take on Zeromus on a much earlier level, and I guess we can just say that he unzipped his pants and went to town on my partys asses (which is why I decided to build up a lot, naturally). So after my hard work of fighting and fighting (and listening to random music at the same time), I decided to give it another try, after Rydia had learned Meteo, and everyone had a quite large pool of hitpoints. I marched in there, gripped the controller as tight as I could (probably a bit tigher than was neccessary, but this was an intense battle) and about five to ten minutes later, I had defeated him!!

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September 16, 2004 2:52AM

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  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Emily


who is this? The comment script is complete!! A small line count 293 lines of code in this script, it allows the integration of automated comments almost instantly. All you have to do is download it, and then link to it anywhere you wish for comments to appear, it's as simple as that! Right now it's up and functioning on Emily's Website [Chaotic Maelstrom]. I only spent a couple hours this afternoon working on it, after Michelle and Emily had already got here. The bulk of the coding was done yesterday, and today was just finishing up the customization aspect of the script, as well as squishing a few bugs which I was aware of. There are still a couple issues I know of that need to be address, but the script will run fine with them still in, I'll just get to fixing them when I can. I've yet to put any real thought into a page or site dedicated to the script, considering how small it is, but I suppose in the next few days I might draw up some ideas for a mini-site... I'll keep you updated, and if you're interested in adding a comment function to your own website, email me about it and I'll see what I can do about setting you up and getting you the script and instructions. I'm not quite sure how 'user friendly' it is right now, as I only made it for me to understand, except some of the customization options, which I fully commented, but with a little instruction, commenting could be set up in as short as five minutes if all went well. I'm proud of it

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