I'm sitting here wondering if anyone has noticed my sudden disappearance... and by someone, I mean not one of the four different people that actually thought I may have died, and made several attempts to check to make sure I was alive. I find it funny (not really offensive or anything...) that I'm offline for a day and people everywhere assume instantly that it was suicide. Anyway... The reason why I'm offline for the first time in ten years, is because that's what happens when you don't pay your rogers bill for long enough; apparently they cut off your internet and digital cable... bastards. So that leaves me with basic cable (they haven't come to my house to physically disconnect the cable outside yet, mwuhaha) and my games and DVDs, so I'm pretty bored lately, and when I'm bored, I think too much, and when I think too much, all I want to do is be alone, and not have any contact with anyone because... I don't really know, I can't really explain it. The thought of having contact with others makes me nervous and the only time I really feel comfortable when I'm in such a terrible state of mind is when I'm alone, because then I don't have to worry about how others are feeling, or if I'm doing things to please them, because when I'm alone, none of that stuff matters because it's just me, and it's a lot less stress on me, and at a time were the stress is at it's highest it's ever been in my life, situations where there is less stress are usually favoured over stressful ones.
