Excessive

Headache after headache, rarely feeling comfortable... this is the story of my days. Today Michelle, Ally, Mark and myself went to the market for various things... mainly Ice Cream, but also bread and mushrooms just cause. We sat around and ate our snacks, and walked around a bunch, eventually going to the brewery for booze, and then Ally went home, and Mark came back to my place to hang out for the rest of the day, till it was later (like.. 9:30 or something.. time went way fast).

Spent the day with Ally, Michelle and Mark.

Not only am I really tired, but my mind just feels so exhausted. Yesterday evening I had a nap, as I mentioned earlier; as a result I was unable to sleep later on, not that I even tried. I just stayed up... playing games... watching shows.

Today started out good enough... in fact I had great hopes for today; something felt different, very different. I got up early but I didn't feel tired, I ate a breakfast, and I decided to take a more active role in trying to make myself feel happy. For the first time in months and months, I went out to the living room and played some games... I even cooked tomatos, because that smell makes me feel safe and comfortable. I just wanted to share some excitment, a few smiles, enjoy the day, play lots of games... feel relaxed and good.